It's June of the year 2011. I didn't bother entering the date here because the days have all begun to blend into one another. Again, I find myself awakening to the cold, apathetic monotony of life where I'm currently living. It is a dark place, and it is frigid. There isn't much room for life here and every day the walls close in and force that once non-existent feeling of claustrophobia into my heart, slowing its pulse until eventually stopping. This is where people go to stop living.

There is so much beauty, wonder, and freedom in this flowing cosmos. Often times I would gaze upon it, wonder upon it, and wander where I could to see such beautiful sights as the moon reflecting off of the ocean as dolphins and other marine life play on the seamless horizon. It is what true life is made of, and happiness.

When live reaches down to offer you a handful of lemons, I would cut them up and place them in tall glasses of iced water. I love that, by the way. What do you do when life gives you nothing? So much nothing that you can't even do something to fill the void? Do race on our snails to the child-like empress? I don't know, but I hope none of you ever have to feel the nothingness as I am now.

On a lighter note, there's a few people that have entired my life as of last week and this, and I must say it is a welcomed, and much needed distraction from the realization that my days mostly consist of staying in one place, one spot, all day. To those, my heart belongs to and forever will.

This is June 21, 2011 and I know that by July the cosmos will open up once more, if not, well, I don't know.



~Lyrae.