I sit here at 1AM, alone. Staying awake as a way to postpone having to work tomorrow; a way to not face the next day. My best friend ships off into the air force tomorrow. Yesterday was the day I met the person it'd take me a year to recover from. It's also the beginning of Fall, the season that brings so much change. It makes me realize something.
I don't do much; I'm not very interesting. I always think of my life up to now uneventful, or as though it hasn't started yet; but it has. I had a childhood, I always knew that, but now I realize I had a life as a teenager, and got to enjoy plenty of the things that come with it. I had plenty of friends, a lot of which who I don't even talk to anymore. I went places, had fun.
But it's all over. It has been for a while.
Every day I have to face a tiny bit more of the future, something I don't want to acknowledge at all. I need to start college. I need to move towards living on my own.
But I'm still hanging onto something, and I don't know how to let go of it.
My friends are in college, moved away, or in the military now. Even the amount people I talk to online is at a smaller number than it once was. Things feel so different and I just don't know where to go. I know what I need to do though, more than anything.

I need to grow up.
It's time to face the future.
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