So life has continued on and I continue to move forwards. Yay!! Now that I've rehashed the title *spanks self* "Bad kitty"....things are going pretty good.

My work situation is still kind of terrible, I have a good paying job but it's slowly eating the rest of my life with stress. Would have never believed I'd be working at a job that is more stressful than a divorce where the spouse is bitterly opposed, and unfortunately just plain bitter. But the job actually made that stress pale in comparison.

Still, I've been out from under my rock for a good long time now. I'm not the type to give up and I paid off my debts from divorce (amounted to around 20k my divorce cost me in fees, stuff I paid out of good will and clean conscience, etc) and stuff from the divorce with mindless amounts of overtime for like a year. While going to college no less. That was done at February of this year. Since then I've actually had time to think and begin healing. Slowly got myself back into good shape and grabbed a few outside of work friends again. It was a hard road because I was sad for a good while and between that and the work stress I really didn't want to do anything productive for a long time. It was a constant battle.

But I stand on the other side of it all now, smarter and opening a new chapter in my life. One filled with an unknown future, hope, friends, a shiny new CPAP machine (god it helps alot, there is a big difference between 2 hours or less REM sleep a night and 4-6 :P), all the neighbors dogs to play with (better than owning my own haha!!), and school hopefully nearly done.

Stranger than anything else is, I honestly just feel sexy, confident, and worth it. That's not a feeling I'm accustomed to. I've actually turned down a couple girls at this point confidently, but gently. There future is going to be an odd and strange place, but one I cannot wait to explore. My name is Ralathar Renares and it's time to get the party known as my life started :D.

My life just became 20% cooler :D.