!WARNING! This one is a bit more personal do NOT be offended if this does not apply to you.

If it does you know EXACTLY who you are and and I do not nor will I force myself to care.

While I try not to use too much profanity in a public venue , note that the filters are most decidedly "OFF" and at this moment things might get a little vitriolic .



I have Been through a hell of a lot since mt last journal entry on this site, as you can guess I was more for humor and less about revealing too much about myself.

Times have been hard, been out of work a year been deemed damn near "unhirable" and the job market sucks , a friend was arrested and locked up for 2 years only to be released and find out what a crapsack this city's become , saw a few good friends die and others I didn't get the chance to help or even say goodbye.

Recently I had to deal with even my own family snubbing me and treating me like utter trash.

And now as I write this my long distance relationship of 5+ years is now dead.

Don't read this entry as some "boo-hoo" whiny emo sob story , but instead understand that horrible things happen

There's oft times no avoiding it and as I have gleaned trying to apologize for your actions is a compromise to one's integrity at best and downright pathetic more oft than naught.

To every single one of the spineless bastards both so-called "friend" or obvious foe that has tried to stand in my way ,drag me down or otherwise screw with my life I offer onto you two simple words...FUCK YOU.

This other specific message goes out to my recent Ex : I will admit to being a bastard with me what you see is what you get exactly as "printed on the tin" but I do not apologize for putting forth effort to make what was a long distance relationship a closer one. While I will admit being away was unfair on you your decision to call it quits and drop me like a bad habit was all your own.
I bear you no resentment nor malice and this is not some attempt to spur any emotion or reaction out of you this is just me speaking my peace.

It's apparent you have been planning this for a while behind my back and have already moved on , so handling this matter should come easy to you.


When it comes down to it I am what I have always been , alone and running "slim" it's suited me and to be 100% honest I don't think I am fit to live any other way.

I have accepted this and will continue to chase my goals on my own.