Sorry I been inactive, whatever. I just been lately feeling horrible and yeah...

I just need to write this journal to rant about my life.

Anyway yeah, so let me explain the situation. My GF who I love dearly suffers from health problems (we been together almost 3 years now). Not going to go into details, but basically at this point in time, she can't get a job because of her health problems. I don't mind that, I mean she wants to work, be productive but she can't. Most of the people I know understand this, are accepting, etc.

The problem which gets me all depressed is there are some fucking people in my life who believe that oh because she is sick, I shouldn't be with her. I should find someone who isn't so sick. Now my GF is the best person I ever met because we almost read each other's minds, love almost the same of everything, etc, and she actually not only cares for me but gives two shits about the world so when she gives me advice it's good advice. But that clearly doesn't matter because oh she is sick and well I should think for myself. I been dealing with this for awhile now, and I feel like I am about to snap with everything going on in my life.

No matter how much I try to feel better, just those feelings of depression coming in because the people who tell me this shit, also have given me jack shit for advice over the years. Oh your being bulled, well just toughen up. Oh you hate your job, well look for another. Shit that never helped me once, and instead of being there for me, I just get this bullshit.

I am sorry for ranting but I don't know where to fucking turn. I just have constant feelings of depression, anger, sadness lately because it seems like all I hear is the same bullshit when I am not with my GF. Also every time I don't do something which is suggested people get fucking annoyed but I should have my own mind.

Thanks if you read that. I just don't know what to do anymore.