Yeaaah these are fun, they have been way too high for my pleasure lately, and every little thing is getting to me again. I normally hate doing these journals because they make me think about things, but sometimes I just need to do it to get my mind on something else for a little while at best.

I went to the dentist today get a check-up, luckily the tooth that lost it's filling isn't that bad, but I found out I have like 2k$ worth of dental work they want to get done on my teeth. One of which is chance of them doing a Root Canal *shivers at the thought*

I don't know if I can get a hold of SSI, and I haven't had a job in over a year waiting for the government to make up it's damn mind about it all. If I loose this I am pretty much guaranteed to be dead broke, even though my illness makes it it impossible for me to work.

My birthday is coming in a little over a month, I am really dreading the thought, because this year I get to spend it truly alone or maybe do something with my parents...

There are days where I really feel like I can't handle this anymore, because my life is at a complete stand-still.