It is tough.

Hey, this is my personal space and stuff.

Mostly I'll be randomly babbling about stuff and how I have been feeling, nothing quite serious and mostly to express what is going on through my mind or in my day to day.

So today I was doing therapy with my right hand to start drawing again, and while it was going great, I realized what I was drawing and was quite unhappy how it turned out, back then I didn't feel so strained drawing a lot and turned out great to my troubled mind but now it's just...ergh.

I feel frustration and mostly impotent. I am close to moving on to 3d and leave drawing as a whole, or might save up to buy a new graphics card since I do have a drawing tablet, but the old GPU doesn't do s**t. I feel lightheaded and stuff, not to mention my wrist surgery was due to a major injury I had while driving my bike.

I guess? I don't know. But after I did my little drawing I felt not motivated to do anything and motivation is a pain in the ass to gain to muster up and get up to do chores.

Starting today I'll try to be more active.