I'll turn 30 tomorrow.

I was planning to do the usual funny "your 30s are coming! you're getting old hahaha" pic, but being honest, it's affecting me more than I was expecting. Not really because of the age, but kind of because of the lost time. I don't feel like a 30yr old man. I feel like a stupid kid who wasted his 20s and still doesn't know what to do with his life and what to do going forward. I'm tired, my body hurts all over, I can't say I'm good with money and I feel really sad and lonely. I'm grateful for every good thing that has happened to me until now, but I don't know, I expected more from my life at this point. I know it's a little selfish and arrogant, it sucks feeling that way, but it's the how I feel.

Even so, I wanted to take a moment to thank all of you for staying with and supporting me all this time. You guys really changed my life and will never be thankful enough or that. I'm sorry if I'm not as fast as other artists, or if my work is not as interesting or sexy as theirs. I can only promise that I'm trying and hoping to improve more from now on; just that, I'll try my best. I also want to tell you all: don't worry, I'll be fine, I recover quickly. But being honest, I might take a few days to reflect and calm down a little after this, I feel like I need to disconnect and be at peace with myself before I continue, I don't want to feel so stagnant anymore. Just a couple days, and then I'll go back to work, I hope you understand.