i found out that there's such a thing as a "memorial page" here .. i looked through some profiles, read some comments and i felt so strange..
last year i tried to unalive myself because i was VERY unstable. but my friend ( my girlfriend now ) saved me and now i live my silly happy life
but sometimes i think.. what if they didn't do it? what if i didn't wrote it? what if.. everything had worked out?
when i read those comments on the dead profiles i felt .. fear and pain.. i imagined how people and my lovely ones write condolences, how they miss me ..
this is so scary and strange..