New Year new me! Or so the saying go's.

The only thing id say that is new about me is I'm learning to speak up and talk about how i feel more, I'm not going to let others walk over my binderies anymore and be frim in them, I'm going to stop holding back who i am because I'm afraid of how others will see me.

For years i hid bits of my self out of fear mostly, and how others have treated me weather its because of the stuff i like how i act or how others have made me feel iv learned to just ignore what i am and who i want to be because of it.

I'm adhd and autistic, im a furry and a little who has a smoll side thats non sexshuale, I'm a switch who prefers to be submissive but always gets forced some way or how to be top only, I'm a service top, I'm a primale hunter, I'm an spicy ace (greysexhule) bean who keeps getting forced into lewed things even when i say so, I allowed my old friends who i saw as family to basically control how i acted, allowed them to tell me how shtiy i was at games i liked and never stood up to them, i allowed my self to be controlled manipulated and abused because i was afraid id loose thoughs i saw as friends for years. And as soon as i put them boundaries, stepped back to take care myself, made hard choices to protect my self i was cast Asiad and now rumors are being spread.

If anything this year the only thing that's going to be different about me is who i allow to be my friends, speaking up when I'm not happy/uncomfortable with things, putting down my binderies and not letting others walk on them again ,not letting anyone change who i am because it fits there style/thing's better ,Not allowing my self to be manipulated/abused again!

This year is about healing from past trauma i never got a chance to heal from, About healing from new trauma that others have given me so i can move on from it, About remembering that i matter my mental heath matters and i should always put my own feelings first, About letting my self just be who i am and be around others who like me for who i am and wont change me to fit something I'm not because they want thing's from me i cant give!

A lot has happened for the past 2 years that have fucked my mantle state up drastically and i almost kept giving in to suicided things due to some the individual's i was around.

No more.

I will be who i am
I will be around who i want to be around and no one will stop me from being around the friends i missed that i wasn't allowed to see
I will keep striving to be a better me a healthier me
And i will keep being happy along side the friends who love me for me.