I am a gay white young adult man living in Colorado. I have always been single, I'm on the autistic spectrum, I've never had an occupation except helping out once as a volunteer at habitat for humanity or helping out at a homeless center, etc.

I have several special needs like aspergers/autism, sensory issues, general anxiety disorder & anxiety attacks, adhd without my being hyperactive as a child or teen, trouble chewing steak or other tough to chew food products, mild to moderate occasional depression, and ocd.

I found out a few or so years ago that I have something called GERD and what they think might be nonalcoholic fatty liver disease, or whatever the right name is these days.

I'm still trying to adapt to the new recommended west mediteranean diet, but I'm doing better than before at trying to eat healthy most of the time.

Even though I'm not that picky with most fruits and vegetables (except papia, zucchini, guacamole, cabbage, and advocado), and familiar home cooked healthy crockpot meals, it was quite upsetting and it was really hard at first to make the transition to a healthier diet most of the time. I'm doing much better now, though.

Still, i do have a few occasional or rare days where it's still difficult to avoid the urge for junk food when there's sugary treats like lifesaver gummies red vines etc in the house or when my mom's out of town and I get really bored or uninterested with what's currently available in the house.

If I do fail to resist the urge to order Uber eats food, then I will try to order a salad or something else that's healthy from Wendy's in addition to a baconator burger and French fries. Basically, i make better choices so not everything that i order is a bad unhealthy choice.

Basically, i still have a little trouble staying on that diet without eating a slice of pizza from lean cuisine or candy such as life saver gummies or on rare occasions enjoying americone dream ice cream from Ben & Jerry's, but I have given up soda pop (except ollipop) and chips and other foods and drinks like that once I learned how bad it is for my health and the bad ingredients that they put in them.

I still will eat them but only on rare occasions. I switched from mountain dew and coca cola and other similar products to izze blackberry or izze clementine, hint water, and fat free or 1% milk. I've even learned to looking forward to drinking water.

I'm also trying to work on exercising again, but it's easier to know how I'm doing when I use the myzone wristwatch band associated with people who go to those vasa fitness gyms.

I exercise once a week at anschutz health and wellness center in aurora co near denver where I live.

I started going there ever since i discovered i have fatty liver disease and started working out with a trainer a few to several months ago and am seeing a specialist to try to lose more weight with wegovy currently.

My weight used to be somewhere around 274 lbs, or something, and I somehow regained about 4 lbs recently and I can't figure out what I did.

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I've never fallen in love and hope to someday. I don't have very many friends at the moment.

I used to have a lot of difficulty believing in myself, but i rarely feel depressed anymore.

I might feel a little down in the dump 1x-3x a month or less these days, but it used to be more than that. I'm doing much better now and thanks for the furaffinity comments on my profile hoping that I am well. It helped a lot.

Anyways, I find that my mind wanders a bit from time to time due to my inquisitive mind and i have trouble staying focused on a task without getting a little bit distracted.

Mostly, though, my mom & I are both really smart in certain ways and naive or inexperienced in other ways; both of us are stubborn and have similar interests like star trek, the wizard of oz, transformers, etc; etc.

Unlike mom, though, i have lived a mostly sheltered life. I used to be much more lazy & messy, more naive and very prone to making mistakes to the point that I hated myself until 6-12 months ago when I both changed my ways and found a new prescription that made me feel better called paxil, etc.

Anyways, i have difficulty thinking of simple or obvious solutions and methods of overcoming a challenge of mine like resisting the temptation to eat something, preorder a game, etc) or solving a problem by using a low tech solution like using a broom or snow shovel to pick up Rhett's poo on the patio in front of our duplex.

What i am attempting to say about myself is that i'm innovative, creative, and can be kind of funny at times.

I like science, astronomy, history, video games, nature, weather, geology & geography, planetary science, etc.

I like to think of myself as being more versatile & flexible than the average person, but I'm not afraid to admit when i'm wrong or biased or afraid of something.

Also, I am often looking for new ways to improve myself & learn new things & be better as a person. I am not afraid to admit that I'm wrong or afraid to apologise, but I am more introverted than extraverted.

I have trouble sometimes socializing with strangers and have issues in the beginning warming up to new people, environments, and concepts; adjusting to change right away without warning or without much warning; etc, despite being willing to on occasion if there's time to process it & comes to terms with it.

If given enough time and not pressured too much, I can try new things as long as it doesn't involve guacamole or avocado, squid, sushi, lobster, crab, skydiving, yak intestines, india-based food, alcohol, cigars or cigarettes, unfamiliar weird or just plain unappealing looking clothing, foods and drinks, etc.

Anyways, I'm really sincerely sorry if someone tries to contact me on furaffinity in one of my journals or notes or messages and I don't respond right away or ever, but I'm kind of visual in certain ways and maintaining my furaffinity account, aol account, etc is very hard for me to maintain.

It's hard to figure out how to create a new journal, access messages from others, manage my profile, organize my stuff, etc.

Also, i've never dated before and i dont know what love feels like personally, and i don't have that many social connections

Part of myself feels a little left out due to not having much in the way of a social circle or much in the way of nearby family. I live with my mom. Everyone else is spread out.

As for dating, I have some trouble working up the courage to date someone that i find interesting, and i dont know how to make the first move, or if they should or what.

I kind of struggle sometimes on how to be romantic and or affectionate in an extraverted way, but I'm more than willing to learn and or be taught, if they're up for that.

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I have trouble figuring out obvious things such as nor being certain if a pounding blue heart as a shout on furaffinity.net is a sign of favoriting some of their artwork or whether it's a sign of romantic affection (I'm clue and naive like that on occasion), etc.

I do sometimes have difficulty loving myself because I struggle with low self esteem, depression, anxiety, etc from time to time, but other times I'm happy. It depends on how I'm feeling during the moment and what's happening in general or life.

I get overwhelmed easily and mentally/physically exhausted due to the way I'm wired differently.

I do take pretty effective therapist prescribed drugs for stabilizing my mood and emotions, but I still cry or feel sad once in a short while, like right before I take my meds.


One final thing, I'm really sorry, but sometimes I accidentally click on the favorite button for art and stories. Sometimes I don't read the full profile of artists or authors, or all of the tags for art/stories.

For example, I clicked on a closeup of a alien's booty, only to later learn he's wearing panties. I have nothing against it, I'm just not into it.

Again, I'm sorry if I hurt anyone's feelings by unliking something after adding it to my favorites.

Im sorry if I didn't catch a clue if someone attempts to socialize with me or hit on me and I don't always notice right away. I have trouble understanding romantic gestures in texts, pixelated images, emojis, etc.