So much has happened since I last wrote anything. My best friend in real life moved away, seems like yesterday so that's pretty fresh still and it's just terrible.

Just dealing with a lot of emotional and personal things really. Like...well things I don't think I'm ready to talk about yet. It's still hard to understand it myself and it scares me a little. Haven't talked to anyone about it at all. But maybe i'll talk about it soon. Maybe show it as well.


Lot's of family stuff too. My sister graduated from college recently. And now the pressure is on to me since I am the second oldest child. But I can't do it. I can't bring myself to do it. I don't know why, but I just can't concentrate or anything when it comes to school. I mean, and I have a job right now so why can't I just stay working? No, I gotta go to school to get a degree I don't want so I can get a job I don't want. And what does a degree do anyway? Why do I need to study subjects that I will never use in my life or career to get my goal? To me, that's just dumb. I don't know, that's how I see it honestly. I know it's really stupid but...yeah. Whatever.


I lost my best internet friend. I mean, I dunno, it happened a while ago but it still tears me up when I think about it. I honestly don't think that I will find another friend like them. I doubt they are reading this at all, but if you are reading this Jon, I'm sorry.