I want to preface, that I am not doing okay.

My Labrador Banjo has been diagnosed with Addisons disease. He did not respond to the treatment as quickly as we had hoped and his bloodwork was pretty scary. It does seem like as of yesterday, we may have finally turned a corner and he is doing okay. We are going to recheck his bloodwork again soon and monitor him. But it has been very touch and go. Addisons is a manageable disease, albeit expensive. But we were teetering on the edge of a crisis situation that would have required intensive hospitalization, which we just, are not able to do.
The doctors and techs I work with have been great and I am just floored by the support I am getting at this newish hospital I am at.

Yesterday, my oldest dog, Artemis, had a cardiac event. Ive been in the industry for almost 10 years and knew something horrible was going on.
Rushed him in to work and he was diagnosed with right sided heart failure. He's being medicated but his prognosis is of course, poor.
We are spending the weekend with him, and putting him to sleep monday. He is 14. It feels like it came out of nowhere as we just took him on a big lovely family walk last week. He's been doing so good.

So, Im sorry, Im just not in a good mental space to stream and stuff.
I will try to get work done, because this is my job, I cant not work. Bills need to be paid.
But Im trying right now and its very hard.
Thank you for reading and understanding.