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Artist Felidrake | Registered: April 14, 2006 01:59:01 PM
Dracat living near Orlando, FL. IT technician by day, artist/gamer/weirdo by night!
Happily married to his Luna <3
(She sometimes goes by Colette.
I'm a canadian lynx/western ice dragon hybrid.
My wife Luna’s FA account is
lulubunny but has been inactive since 2009; she has left FA to concentrate on her own projects. The best way to see updates from her is through me.
Currently working with Luna on her own project as well as a few minor ones of my own.
My Lets Play Youtube channel, mostly unused nowadays.
Long time user of Second Life, been on the grid since '04. Account name is Lynx Manimal. I use the Phoenix/Firestorm viewer. Haven’t been on recently.
COMMENTS WELCOME! I love it when people leave comments, even short ones. So if you have any thoughts at all, take a second and let me know what you think! It makes me happy and encourages me to draw more!
Commissions have been closed lately. I just haven't been up for them...
COMMISSION INFO IS HERE
I DO USE MY SCRAPS FOLDER! Take a look. Most requests I do on streams go in there.
I love seeing myself and Luna drawn! If you feel inspired, go ahead and use our model sheets to draw us! I'll be delighted to see it!
Moderator and member of
Autistic-furs
Member of
monogamousfurs
lynxoffa
wingsandwhiskers
Current avatar artwork by my lovely wife Luna!
Happily married to his Luna <3
(She sometimes goes by Colette.
I'm a canadian lynx/western ice dragon hybrid.
My wife Luna’s FA account is

Currently working with Luna on her own project as well as a few minor ones of my own.
My Lets Play Youtube channel, mostly unused nowadays.
Long time user of Second Life, been on the grid since '04. Account name is Lynx Manimal. I use the Phoenix/Firestorm viewer. Haven’t been on recently.
COMMENTS WELCOME! I love it when people leave comments, even short ones. So if you have any thoughts at all, take a second and let me know what you think! It makes me happy and encourages me to draw more!
Commissions have been closed lately. I just haven't been up for them...
COMMISSION INFO IS HERE
I DO USE MY SCRAPS FOLDER! Take a look. Most requests I do on streams go in there.
I love seeing myself and Luna drawn! If you feel inspired, go ahead and use our model sheets to draw us! I'll be delighted to see it!
Moderator and member of

Member of



Current avatar artwork by my lovely wife Luna!
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Comments Made: 2844
Journals: 104
Recent Journal
Burnout
a month ago
No, nevermind. Forget being “burned out.” I’m fucking vaporized. There’s nothing left.
Y’know, art is hard. Really hard. This is probably because I’m actually a talentless hack who struggles to do everything that all other artists do in their sleep, but the end result is I take ten times longer and expend ten times the effort to do what ends up being mediocre at best work while working on an underpowered tablet (and using a barely-functional brain).
But at least I finish things, right?
Pfft, doesn’t end up mattering. Sure I start out inspired, and I might even be happy with the end result. That’s been the case for the last few pics. But each pic takes so much effort and struggle that I end up burning through that inspiration as it’s gradually replaced by frustration at being unable to do what I want to do - little things like SET UP A POSE or draw something resembling good anatomy. I’m really quite bad at this, you see. Eventually it gets to the point that I’m only finishing a pic because someone else “might” enjoy it, so I finish it, and post it.
To silence.
While everything else posted AROUND my art gets input, feedback and praise. But my art? It might as well not even be there for how people just wholesale skip over it and either completely fail to notice it or just ignore it. And I’m talking about in Discord feeds, folks. People SEE my work. I see art that’s getting feedback, I post mine, nothing happens, then eventually more art is posted and THAT gets feedback. Mine is ignored. Sure, I might like my work, but it’s kinda hard to maintain that feeling when NO ONE BOTHERS TO NOTICE.
And here on FA? It’s fucking amazing if anyone even notices I exist. Bluesky is much the same.
Look I know I’m not very diverse in my subject matter lately. There’s a reason for that: First of all, I’m not very inspired to do much else. Second of all I OBVIOUSLY NEED THE PRACTICE. My art is garbage on multiple levels, which I guess is why no one cares about it, even though I feel like it’s better than a lot of stuff that gets FAR more response. My effort has to count for SOMETHING, doesn’t it?
Ehh, apparently not.
I can’t draw right now. There’s no drive. No skill. No reason. I thought the Firelight Series would have been fun, since believe it or not it’s been a long time since I’ve actually drawn Lynceus banging his wife. I thought it would have been a fun treat for me. But it’s… just not. I’m pouring my feelings into my work through my shitty not-skills and I had hoped my drive and passion for what I do would shine through. Apparently it doesn’t, and/or no one cares. Which is valid, no one is truly required to care whether I live or die and I’m not really supposed to be doing art for other people anyway. I’m supposed to be doing it for myself. I know that, it’s what I tell my wife.
But I understand why one has to be reminded of that. You have to draw for your own satisfaction. But is it so damn wrong to want a little affirmation? Especially when everyone ELSE is getting it, even when they’re seemingly putting in far less effort? WHAT AM I DOING WRONG? Everything, probably. That’s very on brand for me.
I’m not satisfied with my work because I’m unhappy with my own exponentially increasing failings in art. So what’s left? I’m impatient so practicing on something that isn’t going to turn into a full picture feels like a waste of time. This is hard and I want RESULTS for my effort, dammit. It’s not fun. It’s not relaxing. It’s WORK. I do enough of that already. And let’s not even get started on the fact that GenAI adds a brand new layer of shit on top of the whole situation. I’m never going to touch the use of AI - fuck that - but my already insignificant existence is trivialized even further.
And let’s not even get started on my writing. No one EVER cared about THAT. Why would I feel any desire to REWRITE A 150,000 WORD BOOK when NO ONE IS GOING TO READ IT ANYWAY.
I’m sitting on a fucking desert island showing pictures to the sky. What’s the point? Why bother? Why work to get better when I have zero faith that I actually WILL get better, and when no one’s going to give a shit anyway? And let’s not even get into the nazis in power trying to censor everything they possibly can.
“Just take a break,” people might say. And I guess I will. But the problem there is now I don’t know what the fuck I’m going to DO with myself. Probably just quietly turn into an increasing event horizon of resentfulness about how everyone else’s art is SO AMAZING to other people while mine is just IGNORED.
Whatever. I’ll just try to recover for the next wave of ideas no one will give the slightest shit about. Because I don’t matter, and I never did. I’ll be back at some point, not that anyone will even notice. No one’s even going to read this anyway unless I specifically show it to them.
No one should be this emotionally exhausted at 8 AM. I want to go sleep for a week.
Y’know, art is hard. Really hard. This is probably because I’m actually a talentless hack who struggles to do everything that all other artists do in their sleep, but the end result is I take ten times longer and expend ten times the effort to do what ends up being mediocre at best work while working on an underpowered tablet (and using a barely-functional brain).
But at least I finish things, right?
Pfft, doesn’t end up mattering. Sure I start out inspired, and I might even be happy with the end result. That’s been the case for the last few pics. But each pic takes so much effort and struggle that I end up burning through that inspiration as it’s gradually replaced by frustration at being unable to do what I want to do - little things like SET UP A POSE or draw something resembling good anatomy. I’m really quite bad at this, you see. Eventually it gets to the point that I’m only finishing a pic because someone else “might” enjoy it, so I finish it, and post it.
To silence.
While everything else posted AROUND my art gets input, feedback and praise. But my art? It might as well not even be there for how people just wholesale skip over it and either completely fail to notice it or just ignore it. And I’m talking about in Discord feeds, folks. People SEE my work. I see art that’s getting feedback, I post mine, nothing happens, then eventually more art is posted and THAT gets feedback. Mine is ignored. Sure, I might like my work, but it’s kinda hard to maintain that feeling when NO ONE BOTHERS TO NOTICE.
And here on FA? It’s fucking amazing if anyone even notices I exist. Bluesky is much the same.
Look I know I’m not very diverse in my subject matter lately. There’s a reason for that: First of all, I’m not very inspired to do much else. Second of all I OBVIOUSLY NEED THE PRACTICE. My art is garbage on multiple levels, which I guess is why no one cares about it, even though I feel like it’s better than a lot of stuff that gets FAR more response. My effort has to count for SOMETHING, doesn’t it?
Ehh, apparently not.
I can’t draw right now. There’s no drive. No skill. No reason. I thought the Firelight Series would have been fun, since believe it or not it’s been a long time since I’ve actually drawn Lynceus banging his wife. I thought it would have been a fun treat for me. But it’s… just not. I’m pouring my feelings into my work through my shitty not-skills and I had hoped my drive and passion for what I do would shine through. Apparently it doesn’t, and/or no one cares. Which is valid, no one is truly required to care whether I live or die and I’m not really supposed to be doing art for other people anyway. I’m supposed to be doing it for myself. I know that, it’s what I tell my wife.
But I understand why one has to be reminded of that. You have to draw for your own satisfaction. But is it so damn wrong to want a little affirmation? Especially when everyone ELSE is getting it, even when they’re seemingly putting in far less effort? WHAT AM I DOING WRONG? Everything, probably. That’s very on brand for me.
I’m not satisfied with my work because I’m unhappy with my own exponentially increasing failings in art. So what’s left? I’m impatient so practicing on something that isn’t going to turn into a full picture feels like a waste of time. This is hard and I want RESULTS for my effort, dammit. It’s not fun. It’s not relaxing. It’s WORK. I do enough of that already. And let’s not even get started on the fact that GenAI adds a brand new layer of shit on top of the whole situation. I’m never going to touch the use of AI - fuck that - but my already insignificant existence is trivialized even further.
And let’s not even get started on my writing. No one EVER cared about THAT. Why would I feel any desire to REWRITE A 150,000 WORD BOOK when NO ONE IS GOING TO READ IT ANYWAY.
I’m sitting on a fucking desert island showing pictures to the sky. What’s the point? Why bother? Why work to get better when I have zero faith that I actually WILL get better, and when no one’s going to give a shit anyway? And let’s not even get into the nazis in power trying to censor everything they possibly can.
“Just take a break,” people might say. And I guess I will. But the problem there is now I don’t know what the fuck I’m going to DO with myself. Probably just quietly turn into an increasing event horizon of resentfulness about how everyone else’s art is SO AMAZING to other people while mine is just IGNORED.
Whatever. I’ll just try to recover for the next wave of ideas no one will give the slightest shit about. Because I don’t matter, and I never did. I’ll be back at some point, not that anyone will even notice. No one’s even going to read this anyway unless I specifically show it to them.
No one should be this emotionally exhausted at 8 AM. I want to go sleep for a week.
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Lynx Felidrake
Favorite Music
Video Game Music, anything high powered that inspires me
Favorite Games
Minecraft, Zelda, Metroid, Harvest Moon, many more
Favorite Gaming Platforms
Steam Deck, Switch, RetroPie, PC, Retroid Pocket Flip, Steam Deck
Favorite Animals
Cats, Dragons, Sneks, Lizards
Favorite Site
FA
Favorite Foods & Drinks
Italian!
Favorite Quote
I think the key to improving as an artist is not being AWARE that you suck, so you don't feel the urge to quit...
Favorite Artists
My wife
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Thank you so much for the watch - I really appreciate your support! Absolutely adore your character!! ♡