Hey everyone.. I've been very quiet.. life has gotten hold of me tight and its throwing so many challenges my way.... these past few years have been a test of my heart.. a trial of my soul... oct 2023 my mother suffered a stroke.. which slowly deteriorated her to being bed ridden, no matter how much physical therapy we did.. her mind started to fail... i was working to try and keep up with the bills and house note.. and i was slowly making progress.. but then the house started to fall apart... roof leaks, plumbing ... my brother and i came to the conclusion we had to sell the house.. mom was still cognitive enough to weigh in on this decision.. thankfully... as i was working and looking for an apartment.. my job decided to close down the call centers in the WHOLE state.. leaving me jobless.. and right when the house was sold too.. my dog and i going from hotel to hotel to stay off the streets.. staying with a friend for a time.. now living with my brother till i can get back on my feet... then... aug 1... 2025...8 am... m..my mother... passed on....i was the first to and last to see her alive.. she couldnt even speak.. or open her eyes.. i watched the coroner pronounce her death... i watched 3 priests come and pray for her... i watched the people carry her away... i watched my brother bring her remains in a box... I put her remains in urns and necklaces for family members.... i then lost the car she left me.... i couldnt get an apartment... and now i lost my job in febuary and havent been able to get a job since..... right now.. trying my best not to just lay on the floor and give up.... my golden light is my beloved kitsune whos been by my side for so long i dont deserve her.. but it hurts that i cant provide for her.... which is why i'm trying to start a business. one that will help start the bigger projects.... like my story ... ill be posting updates and pics on what I'm working on soon....

i just wanted to give an update if anyone was wondering....
thank you...