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Do you ever just have a day, or a week, or more, when you are just like... "ART. I CAN'T. NOOO." This was how I was feeling! So today I doodled then colored the stressed kitty girl like a dilute/faded version of my fursona because, eh, why not?
So this is the problem I have.
I take on REALLY AMBITIOUS PROJECTS, personal projects, and inevitably I end up happy and pretty proud of them when I'm finished, but it takes forever. You know, the super detailed ones I only produce a few of per year where the anatomy is pretty good and I have drawn like EVERY INDIVIDUAL HAIR. But these things I manage to churn out are usually, like, kind of above my skill level when I start? Or I mean, I'm always trying like, six things I've never done before, in one piece? And I have to kind of... level up while I draw? Obviously this is really good for my growth as an artist, but it is kind of ... tiring. And sometimes I get to the end of the drawing and see stuff I was doing my best on at the beginning that I feel like I could now do better, but I don't want to scrap the whole thing.
Sometimes I feel like I SHOULD do art or I NEED to make art but I'm like... NO. NO MORE REALISM. So that's why I sketched this girl. :3 And because of the next point-
Second prong of this, is THIS IS HOW I FEEL WHEN I TAKE COMMISSIONS. I have so much admiration for artists who make a living or even a semi-living off of commissions because I cannot handle it. I have the physical skill but because art is my MAIN self care (which in my high-burnout not-great-pay high-stress field of work is so needed) I totally lose that outlet if I have promised even one piece of art to anyone. Next thing I know, I start to feel anxious and depressed and generally neurotic.
Work has been ROUGH lately, and art is usually my escape, but when "I should do art" turns into a guilt thing, there is NO escape! Ahh! Fortunately, I have since finished the commission that was hanging over my head when I made this. it allowed me to un-artblock myself and do what I needed to do. That's what vent art is for sometimes!
So this is the problem I have.
I take on REALLY AMBITIOUS PROJECTS, personal projects, and inevitably I end up happy and pretty proud of them when I'm finished, but it takes forever. You know, the super detailed ones I only produce a few of per year where the anatomy is pretty good and I have drawn like EVERY INDIVIDUAL HAIR. But these things I manage to churn out are usually, like, kind of above my skill level when I start? Or I mean, I'm always trying like, six things I've never done before, in one piece? And I have to kind of... level up while I draw? Obviously this is really good for my growth as an artist, but it is kind of ... tiring. And sometimes I get to the end of the drawing and see stuff I was doing my best on at the beginning that I feel like I could now do better, but I don't want to scrap the whole thing.
Sometimes I feel like I SHOULD do art or I NEED to make art but I'm like... NO. NO MORE REALISM. So that's why I sketched this girl. :3 And because of the next point-
Second prong of this, is THIS IS HOW I FEEL WHEN I TAKE COMMISSIONS. I have so much admiration for artists who make a living or even a semi-living off of commissions because I cannot handle it. I have the physical skill but because art is my MAIN self care (which in my high-burnout not-great-pay high-stress field of work is so needed) I totally lose that outlet if I have promised even one piece of art to anyone. Next thing I know, I start to feel anxious and depressed and generally neurotic.
Work has been ROUGH lately, and art is usually my escape, but when "I should do art" turns into a guilt thing, there is NO escape! Ahh! Fortunately, I have since finished the commission that was hanging over my head when I made this. it allowed me to un-artblock myself and do what I needed to do. That's what vent art is for sometimes!
Category Artwork (Digital) / All
Species Feline (Other)
Size 690 x 1280px
File Size 125.6 kB
A week ago was the first time I finished any kind of piece in the last year and a half. I haven't been able to finish anything in part because I took on a trade comic page that I DID NOT have the required skills for. My approach to art is very similar to how you have described. It means that we have greater growth per piece, but each piece takes much more out of us. I've only recently started getting my mojo back by painting a bunch of stupid stuff that I haven't really posted anywhere(in part because I still need to get it together and finish the trade I owe and I feel guilty about working on other things first V.V; ) It is sometimes really hard to keep trying to make progress at something without taking the fun out of it.
TLDR: I know these feels. Keep on keeping on.
TLDR: I know these feels. Keep on keeping on.
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