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Idk. I like Kalt the most. [devil]
Lyrics from some song I have on my zune. Forgot the title. But its a good song. -shrugs- Been digging deep inside and finding my true self/lves lately.
I found out how fucking weak I am.
I found out how fucking angry and how horrible I can get.
I found out how when things are pushed and my anger above its limits I seem to find ways to wanna do fucked up things to people.
I hate it when people find my weaknesses and use it all up and chew me up and spit me out and laugh at the hurt they caused. I wish I could tear their insides out. Destroy them.

Today I was a monster and I didn't even mean to be so heartless and mean.
Me and Queef were playing around and he smashed his hand into mine and cracked my knuckles. And yeah, it hurt. It was a freaking weird pain I've never felt and really took me by surprise but of course, my fucking reflex was to turn away from him and curl in the corner and lick my small little wound.
Years and years of doing it to everyone made me into a monster to him and I didn't mean to. I felt like a shit hole.
I just need to runaway. Far away to somewhere safe with him and get away from all the people that push me into a monster and find people, more people that just Jessyka that make me so happy.
I need to get away.
At least I can drive a certain distance. [Well, soon anyway]

</end of personal rant i doubt ANY of you read all the way through>
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