This was drawn last October when I saw the world as a dark black place. My grandfather had died Sept. 26, and then to top it all off my baby boy AF died exactly two weeks after that. Heh I remember after my grandfather died I was clinging to AF and telling him not to leave me, silly as that may sound. He was the first animal I had a deep bond with and his death broke me. Even now not sure I'll ever fully heal from that,