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I hardly ever get the inspiration to do vent art, I do find it hard to express myself at the best of times, even through art. But I was in a pretty bad place and this just... came to me. So with the concept in mind, a lot of other things followed through. I'v had a rough few years, worst commencing in 2018. I have learned so many hard lessons, and I plan to take those forwards with me, to better manage myself, and strengthen my relationships with people. I understand more about the world, emotion, people and myself. A lot of delusions have been smashed, and it feels as though my mind has been dragged through a lot realisations and revelations. Both good and bad, but at such speed. Everything feels a bit too much, and too little at the same time.
It's the first time i'v really struggled to understand and manage my mental health. Plus i'm a worrier, my worries seem valid to me and so it's very hard to get myself out of the mindset sometimes.
I'v woken up... I feel so much more confident in what I can do and achieve. I'm way more confident in many ways and I have a lot of emotional plans. But... I feel colder. How can I ever relax, with all that is on my mind? How can I feel this care free bliss again, without the aid of substances? (Don't worry i'm not on drugs nor do I plan to go to them, it's just a question.) Can I ever be happy, with all that I think about, and how I am?
To the long term followers, you may remember the Old Bass! The character on the left is Bass, the old one, the old me. She signifies the time from 2010 - 2013. The trail on the floor goes 2014 to present day me. The splatter on the floor was when everything went to shit and the awful times began, 2018.
But yeh, i'm alright. Just doing a lot of thinking. I did like doing this picture though, it allowed me to express a lot.
It's the first time i'v really struggled to understand and manage my mental health. Plus i'm a worrier, my worries seem valid to me and so it's very hard to get myself out of the mindset sometimes.
I'v woken up... I feel so much more confident in what I can do and achieve. I'm way more confident in many ways and I have a lot of emotional plans. But... I feel colder. How can I ever relax, with all that is on my mind? How can I feel this care free bliss again, without the aid of substances? (Don't worry i'm not on drugs nor do I plan to go to them, it's just a question.) Can I ever be happy, with all that I think about, and how I am?
To the long term followers, you may remember the Old Bass! The character on the left is Bass, the old one, the old me. She signifies the time from 2010 - 2013. The trail on the floor goes 2014 to present day me. The splatter on the floor was when everything went to shit and the awful times began, 2018.
But yeh, i'm alright. Just doing a lot of thinking. I did like doing this picture though, it allowed me to express a lot.
Category Artwork (Digital) / Abstract
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This hit way too close to home for me personally, the art is amazing, and i don't know what has happened in your life, but i myself struggle often times as well, looking back at the past and wondering why i can't be as happy anymore, what changed, what i can change now, worrying about a lot of (stupid) little and bigger things..... i don't know you, but i just wanted to say that.
Great job with this piece, best of luck to you and i hope you're able to be happy again.
Great job with this piece, best of luck to you and i hope you're able to be happy again.
This hit home for me too. 2018 I had two medical issues that required surgery. Now this year seems to be worse! Change is inevitable, and looking back to the past is the swiftest path to depression as you wonder what could have or haven't been.
I do hope that you find your happiness once more.
I do hope that you find your happiness once more.
I admit I haven't been a follower of yours for terribly long but have of course known the name for a good while and I also don't know the ins and outs of what has happened though I do hope it wasn't anything too bad. I can say that this does highlight quite a few things for me too and seems to match up alot; I used to be very outgoing, optimistic and pretty carefree to the point that nothing would ever really bug me but that changed a good few years ago for a few reasons but of course I won't go into it here because I don't want to bore anyone. Now though it's difficult to stop myself from worrying about just about anything really and I always seem to be a bit anxious for no obvious reason and always a bit tense, truly relaxing is pretty difficult now. I also try hard not to dwell too much on my own past because that just makes me keep questioning both it and myself and it's pretty easy to get swallowed up and lost by that in a vicious circle as I found out.
I believe this was the main cause of why I fell away from my original sona and ended up with Revy, I know he developed through SL but it was over a long period and I struggle quite a bit creatively and also to express myself or even show the right emotions sometimes so it helps for me. However he is far different obviously physically but also mentally. With me though Revy is more how I would like to see myself and it gives me something to both keep in mind and hope for as well that I'll perhaps be back in a position like that again some day since I see him as being very positive and playful.
I've been asking a few very similar questions myself for a long while and haven't yet found the answers but I keep trying to and would like to think I'll find them one day as well as end up feeling more upbeat in general again. I know physically that isn't alot but it is definitely something that can be held.
Thanks for sharing this though and good luck to you and your searching!
I believe this was the main cause of why I fell away from my original sona and ended up with Revy, I know he developed through SL but it was over a long period and I struggle quite a bit creatively and also to express myself or even show the right emotions sometimes so it helps for me. However he is far different obviously physically but also mentally. With me though Revy is more how I would like to see myself and it gives me something to both keep in mind and hope for as well that I'll perhaps be back in a position like that again some day since I see him as being very positive and playful.
I've been asking a few very similar questions myself for a long while and haven't yet found the answers but I keep trying to and would like to think I'll find them one day as well as end up feeling more upbeat in general again. I know physically that isn't alot but it is definitely something that can be held.
Thanks for sharing this though and good luck to you and your searching!
I really appreciate you. no matter how rough things got, you continued to push through and keep creating. you could have done far worse things than to push forwards into a new you. You made the best of what you were dealt and are stronger for it. That's worth a lot more than you realize.
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