More vent art, but also, a helpful tool for commissioners and watchers to understand what has been happening to my art, and a piece of what I've been going through.

So the WHOLE thing started YEARS ago. I started not being able to recognize stop lights: had to think about the position rather than the color. But of course: I was already dealing with the crps pain. Seeing so many doctors I literally lost track at 17 just trying to FIGURE out why the pain wouldn't let up. (Most of them made it worse actually). So it all kind of got swept under the rug (along with like five or so other medical issues... But that's just being human.) But when peeps first started suggesting I try those color correcting glasses I checked out a site that sells them. And when I took the test, this is what I got.
I can tell the difference when I zoom in REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEALLY close. But at this size right now. I cannot tell the difference between the two.

It has been a strange journey. And especially frustrating that I finally have an art room. Like I ALWAYS dreamed. And now my colors and sight are going. Sometimes it makes me feel like I am dying (I'm pretty sure I'm not. Just FEELS like it a lot). First the crps made it nearly impossible to dance. And now my eyes are making it more and more difficult to draw, paint, and color. But like the crps I won't let it stop me <3. Just gotta keep moving.
Thanks for letting me chat about it. There will likely be more. I've been needing to vent a long looong time. I think not talking about it was making me very mentally ill. If you do not want to read this, or are mad about reading it: unwatch me please. Thank you.