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A few kind words can cure a large amount of darkness.
But it can be difficult to believe in any kind words when we are raised to feel guilty if we don't say them even when we don't mean it, so we think that's what other people must be doing, or because we are told that people just say them to get something. How do you know which kind words are true? I don't know. I was always stubborn to the core and refused to say things that didn't carry any feeling, and you are so unbelievably similar that I know the words must be real. But if I wasn't like this then I wouldn't be able to tell the difference. When someone is different it's difficult to tell apart what is what, especially if they keep saying that everyone mostly lies - cause that must mean it includes themselves? Everyone say things that are untrue sometimes, because we are all flawed in our perception, but mistakes don't equal ill intentions.
I could of course simply be blind in whom I trust, because I have been blind before and the truth displays itself later. My trust in people to have good intentions would turn against me. But there probably isn't any grand truth to people, how we treat and think of each other ultimately decides how much strength we have to keep trying our best. I went through a breaking point. After being doubted for a long time it seems almost impossible to make nothing but mistakes, each worse than the other. Each mistake amplifying that the ultimate truth must be that I'm worthless and evil, always fearing when it gets even worse. After all, if I all do is bad then how can I be any good? Maybe we were all actually evil and nothing was truly good in this world. So I gave up, I removed myself because I was a failure. I was torn and my thoughts were just a dark clouds of nothing comprehensible, not words, images or melodies, just a pressuring noise of ill feelings.
The thoughts did nothing useful, they didn't resolve anything, just kept spiralling into worse. I doubted all the kind words. Until I realized that if I keep doubting I would be doing the exact same thing that tore myself apart and led to this broken state. And if you are the same as I, then you'd not give up and that doubt would destroy you too. You do not deserve it and neither did I.
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Goat in the comic is nordicgeitur
But it can be difficult to believe in any kind words when we are raised to feel guilty if we don't say them even when we don't mean it, so we think that's what other people must be doing, or because we are told that people just say them to get something. How do you know which kind words are true? I don't know. I was always stubborn to the core and refused to say things that didn't carry any feeling, and you are so unbelievably similar that I know the words must be real. But if I wasn't like this then I wouldn't be able to tell the difference. When someone is different it's difficult to tell apart what is what, especially if they keep saying that everyone mostly lies - cause that must mean it includes themselves? Everyone say things that are untrue sometimes, because we are all flawed in our perception, but mistakes don't equal ill intentions.
I could of course simply be blind in whom I trust, because I have been blind before and the truth displays itself later. My trust in people to have good intentions would turn against me. But there probably isn't any grand truth to people, how we treat and think of each other ultimately decides how much strength we have to keep trying our best. I went through a breaking point. After being doubted for a long time it seems almost impossible to make nothing but mistakes, each worse than the other. Each mistake amplifying that the ultimate truth must be that I'm worthless and evil, always fearing when it gets even worse. After all, if I all do is bad then how can I be any good? Maybe we were all actually evil and nothing was truly good in this world. So I gave up, I removed myself because I was a failure. I was torn and my thoughts were just a dark clouds of nothing comprehensible, not words, images or melodies, just a pressuring noise of ill feelings.
The thoughts did nothing useful, they didn't resolve anything, just kept spiralling into worse. I doubted all the kind words. Until I realized that if I keep doubting I would be doing the exact same thing that tore myself apart and led to this broken state. And if you are the same as I, then you'd not give up and that doubt would destroy you too. You do not deserve it and neither did I.
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Goat in the comic is nordicgeitur
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Worms are good making soil rich and enabling life to flourish there. I think we are the same in that people are both good or bad depending on where we are at and what we decide to do. Inevidently our existence is always a problem to someone and in exchange benefits someone else. At least we can try to decide where we go, or maybe we are as clueless as worms which are either in the can or the compost bin and don't have the ability to consider what the difference is.
This is extremely relatable. I myself have been going through serious self doubt as of late. It's just difficult or awkward to bring up, you know?
If you're down for it and you ever wanna chat about dark stuff like this, let me know. I know I can be difficult to reach at times, but I've struggled a lot with this. It's healthy to express sometimes.
If you're down for it and you ever wanna chat about dark stuff like this, let me know. I know I can be difficult to reach at times, but I've struggled a lot with this. It's healthy to express sometimes.
I think it's really dangerous telling yourself and others that everyone is always ill intended. It leads to always assuming everyone is lying about everything when usually they're just speaking their current perspective on things, not everything that we say which is untrue is a lie. It's true some people are malicious and do lie to gain things, but assuming everyone does only leads to justifying why it's okay to lie yourself and then you make the problem worse and never find common ground with others.
And to clarify: A lie is when someone says something which is untrue on purpose, not because they don't know better.
And to clarify: A lie is when someone says something which is untrue on purpose, not because they don't know better.
Good observation, yes. Though what I said about both sides needing to help with communication, doesn't change if we change it to "people say untrue things all the time".
As for my first statement, read it as "people deceive each other and themselves all the time" (with or without intent), as that's what I meant to say.
Edit: also I didn't say that everyone is always ill intended, even if you read it as "lie" instead of "deceive", please don't interpret things in such a negative light.
As for my first statement, read it as "people deceive each other and themselves all the time" (with or without intent), as that's what I meant to say.
Edit: also I didn't say that everyone is always ill intended, even if you read it as "lie" instead of "deceive", please don't interpret things in such a negative light.
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