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I spend most of my time hiding under a fake smile. Losing my mind on my thoughts without letting others know. I bottled myself up to keep my thoughts and feelings away from people, I do not wish to become anyone’s burden.
Even though I have been betrayed, I keep accepting its flaws… being lied to… having a different life hidden from me, and even my close friends and the entire community knowing of it, without anyone telling me what happened… It burns, it kills me inside knowing that I’m not that important for them to let me know important decisions… But well. I accepted it… I forgive it… In the end, I feel that my opinion and feelings don’t matter at all…
And it BURNS to know that I might be the obstacle to letting that person be what it feels it is. I just ask, you to please, if you wish to make those changes in your life, just let me go… Stop having a life on my back, because I do not want to be the reason for laughter, feeling like a clown… Even tho you tell me that it won’t happen, I know it is not true, I do not want you to reproach me in the future.
I fear losing my close friends, I fear losing those gold people, even tho they have mentioned to me multiple times that they won’t leave me, I feel that if I ever talk too much, I will lose them…
I keep questioning myself about my likes, my passions, and my decisions… they don’t feel anymore like something that fulfills me, I have lost my tastes, I have lost passion. I need to feel something again… I keep trying new kinds of stuff and most of the time I keep “liking them” to fit with people… I think I have lost myself…
I have closed myself, I wish to feel passionate about something again. My mind betrays me over and over again, and I refuse to let my close friends help, I know they have bigger problems and I do not want to annoy them, I’m not that important… At this point, I might have broken up, and I’m at the point of screaming for help, for someone who can let me out of this bottle I have got myself in…
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Category Artwork (Digital) / All
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