Remember how I said I can be hyper verbal compared to normal people, for me it is like normal person talks a little about something I am vaguely interested in, I can spend an hour and still not be satisfied completely, I have had to learn to turn it down as that is not the norm at all. Sometimes I end talking more because I am a bit nervous while which is considered the opposite of the norm in the USA. However I guess we could say this a two sides of the same coin type of thing here. By the way I hope I am not being annoying to you I just feel like sharing my experience as it is different but still fascinating how similar the results can be. I technically have one friend I hang out with but other than that I only have friends who I talk with. It can still feel lonely at times.

we should swap our abilities somehow. you give me some of your hyperverbal, i give you some of my mutism. perfectly balanced.

If only things worked like that, that could be fun but you know what I have learned to live with my hyperverbalness, I hope you can eventually figure things out yourself.

I have a machine brain and am puppy. Its hard sometimes.

I can kinda relate to this. I find that I have a hard time taking compliments and gifts without immediately feeling like "is this a trick" due to that kinda thing happening to me when i was a kid, i.e. compliments actually being backhanded or insincere, gifts being either fake or a ploy or something. It's difficult to get over that shit.

That's a mood.
Generally when someone talks to me or reaches out, my very first thought and one that often never goes away: What do they want and what's their angle? What're they trying to get from me?

I’m kinda in the middle here. I myself never initialize small talk, but am not too bad at pretending to engage in it for a while if someone else starts talking to me. I tend to lose focus though after a while and zone out though, leading to me having to ask them to repeat themselves.

.... fuck.

she's onto me.

*ABORT*