Damn honestly I don't know who you are bud but even reading that was rough. I'm sorry your going through this I know I can't really help but I hope you know I'm rooting for ya.

PLEASE, my dear, do not do something dangerous to end your own life or prematurely commit something that will not solve your struggles. Listen, I beg of you.

It's 10:42 PN EST where I am and on a work night. I should be asleep and yet I am saying this with every fiber of my being, PLEASE please please don't hurt yourself or worse because there are time where I know it hurts. It hurts a lot. Everything. Everything is moving too fast and things aren't changing in the way we want them to or in the way they should that we deserve. And I can only attempt to emphasize and understand what you are going through. I'm going to assume this one time that it is especially different and difficult for you if your Luxray Fursona is anything accurate to go by in regards to your identity but please I beg of you to hear me out.

I am typing this on my phone at almost 11 at night when I have to wake up at 7 tomorrow for a 9-5 shift because YOU ARE WORTH IT! I DON'T CARE WHAT ANYONE ELSE JUDGES YOU AS, I JUDGE YOU AS BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING AND I MEAN THAT WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BODY AND SOUL! YOU HAVE SO MANY THINGS WAITING FOR YOU, AND THEY ARE ALL WORTH STRUGGLING FOR EVEN IF IT'S UNJUST, JUST LIKE YOU ARE WORTH EVERY BIT OF LOVE AND ATTENTION FROM ME AND EVERYONE ELSE! I'm really sorry for the all caps there but I want to express how much emotion I am putting into this comment on your post. It's not just some comment made in concern or general empathy from a random stranger who you know nothing about on the internet. This is a comment from someone who is willing to reach out to you and if I could defy the laws of physics and break the fabric of reality's design, I would reach my hand into my phone right now and have it come out the other end on your device and clasp onto your hand and hold your hand tight and channel every bit of sad puppy dog eye energy to show you that you ARE worth everything to others, and your life is one worth living and to preemptively end it would be a travesty and only add more sorrow and despair to this already cruel and corrupt world on the verge of total ruin. Yes I know it hurts, it hurts so much and even though my own pain and struggles are completely different from yours l, if I could I would feel your pain all at once just for a brief moment if it meant giving you some form of relief of pressure and stress. But I can't. And so instead this is what I can actually do. But you have been heard, your voice has been heard and as much as I'm blabbing and yapping on I WILL listen to you. But I can't offer my love and your heartache shared if you are gone. Please don't leave me, don't leave us, there are people who you don't even know but you've made an impact in their lives and you have made a DIFFERENCE in the WORLD and I'm not overreacting or exaggerating when I say that. Please, anything to get you to stop yourself from making a final mistake that can never be taken back or made up for. You matter, your thoughts and opinions matter, you are valid, your knowledge and emotions are important and you make an impact on the world, I know it doesn't feel that way sometimes but that just means you haven't met that moment in your life where when it happens, and it WILL happen, you will FEEL and KNOW you have made an impact and left your mark upon the world and it will be just one of many countless beautiful wonders in the world that can and will purge any darkness or agony. But you have to stay with me, with us if you are ever going to get there. If you stay, I KNOW you're gonna make it. Because when the Will is there, it WILL be worth everything, our Will be done. All who dare try and take that away from you or me or any of us be damned. You are in fact more powerful then you realize. You just haven't reached your own apex yet. And I personally look forward to what wonderous things are ahead of you if you choose to stay with us all the way.

You just might find yourself becoming so much more then you every even dreamed to be. You are alive, a living breathing, feeling creature endowed with life, and yes sometimes more than we like that does mean we suffer. But as much as it hurts, as much as it's not fair, it's worth it to see you someday roar to the top and show everyone and the world what a big, beautiful, unbeatable BEAST YOU CAN REALLY BE IF YOU KEEP GOING! Please I beg of you, keep going, keep going, keep going. When the darkness comes, when the monsters attack, we stand together and we KEEP GOING. And one of these days, we're gonna make it to the day where no one after us will have to suffer through what we went through and we will leave behind our permanent mark upon the world and it will be beautiful. And only because you are there and are a part of it, cause without you it will never shine as bright. Broken hearts be damned, better to be broken and rise up again then to have never been anything at all. And let me tell you something. You are one of a kind. And that makes you indispensable and irreplaceable and tremendously valuable to all of us. Sometimes we just can't see it. But I feel it, it is there and just as real and amazing as you are.

Please forgive me in my incredibly long winded TLDR rambling. Now at least remember the goodness of this comment and get some much needed well deserved rest. You shall need it for what is to come. Darkness is inevitable but so are you, and you have the whole rest of your existence to seize your world and make your permanent mark on the world of ours that we all share. Take care and best wishes my fellow living breathing being. You are more amazing than you may ever know. To me, to everyone, to the world. You just have to keep going.