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(CW talk of abuse)
Carrying on from last weeks confession I have to also confess to something here, This isn't how these pages should have gone, originally when I wrote Shine back in 2014 there were a few things I wanted to cover. The sexual abuse I suffered from a daddy figure in the community and the childhood abuse I suffered from my mother.
The sexual abuse I was subjected to by my first daddy figure was sort of lightly....covered with Marello with star at the party and I was content with that, but when it came to the childhood abuse I suffered from my mum....I just couldn't put little Star through it, and then I realised maybe that's how I approach that. That she doesnt have to go through some stuff that I went through. That just because I couldnt protect myself at the time as a small child, I can protect her by simply not making it happen. So this page kinda feels like i've rescued Star, even though to look at the page no one would really know, because nothing has actually happened to her.
I was small for my age (a product of mum chain smoking whilst I was in her belly) and so I was always being mistaken for a younger kid, even now fully grown im the height of a 12 year old, and whilst I knew from a very early age I wanted to be the baby of the family. I never dared actually say that out loud, in the way star is doing on this page, knowing I was the eldest, that I had to be smart and grown up, so I shunned anything childish for fear of it revealling that I wanted to be small and held.
But one day mum forced me into diapers, as punishment for acting childishly, I was literally 7 at the time and had asked mum to lift me out of the bath, mainly cause i was struggling because i was small for my age, she taunted me that only babies needed to be lifted out of the bath and so picked me up and..well yeah forced me into diapers. The shame it created in me I can still feel today, and is def a factor as to why I am who I am today and why my kinks revolve around forced babying and a lot of non consenty type stuff, it just wired something in my brain, something about being able to play that non consent out in fiction feels containing and safe in a way i didn't feel back then I guess.
So yeah. well done little star, you managed to escape that particular trauma. Im happy for you.
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(CW talk of abuse)
Carrying on from last weeks confession I have to also confess to something here, This isn't how these pages should have gone, originally when I wrote Shine back in 2014 there were a few things I wanted to cover. The sexual abuse I suffered from a daddy figure in the community and the childhood abuse I suffered from my mother.
The sexual abuse I was subjected to by my first daddy figure was sort of lightly....covered with Marello with star at the party and I was content with that, but when it came to the childhood abuse I suffered from my mum....I just couldn't put little Star through it, and then I realised maybe that's how I approach that. That she doesnt have to go through some stuff that I went through. That just because I couldnt protect myself at the time as a small child, I can protect her by simply not making it happen. So this page kinda feels like i've rescued Star, even though to look at the page no one would really know, because nothing has actually happened to her.
I was small for my age (a product of mum chain smoking whilst I was in her belly) and so I was always being mistaken for a younger kid, even now fully grown im the height of a 12 year old, and whilst I knew from a very early age I wanted to be the baby of the family. I never dared actually say that out loud, in the way star is doing on this page, knowing I was the eldest, that I had to be smart and grown up, so I shunned anything childish for fear of it revealling that I wanted to be small and held.
But one day mum forced me into diapers, as punishment for acting childishly, I was literally 7 at the time and had asked mum to lift me out of the bath, mainly cause i was struggling because i was small for my age, she taunted me that only babies needed to be lifted out of the bath and so picked me up and..well yeah forced me into diapers. The shame it created in me I can still feel today, and is def a factor as to why I am who I am today and why my kinks revolve around forced babying and a lot of non consenty type stuff, it just wired something in my brain, something about being able to play that non consent out in fiction feels containing and safe in a way i didn't feel back then I guess.
So yeah. well done little star, you managed to escape that particular trauma. Im happy for you.
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Oof, okay, that's where our similarities end, then. I wasn't abused like you were, so my condolences. That being said, I'm happy Star just wanted to be a baby, because that is kinda how it was for me. Growing up with a brother who was practically babied (and diapered) because of his disability, I felt envious and one thing led to another. A part of me always felt curious about diapers, seeing him wear them, and one day, I took a chance and snuck one. It was a Huggies brand, but I don't remember exactly what the size was. I just know it was definitely bigger than toddler-size.
Also, Tatiana, my Titan Toddlers would like to have a word with you about babies not being superheroes...
Also, Tatiana, my Titan Toddlers would like to have a word with you about babies not being superheroes...
I love this for you and for Star. I had something similar happen to me when I was in my childhood home for the last time. My bedroom had a closet with mirror doors, and I always wished the Phantom of the Opera would come through that mirror and save me (or anyone Rainbow Brite, Voltron, whatever). I was carrying around a giant teddy bear that I was using a therapeutic comfort item at the time. I played "Show Yourself" on my phone and told myself that no one came, but I was hear to take my younger self away finally. I picked up the bear, balanced it on my hip like a child, walked out, and never went back.
On the subject you spoke about in the description. We are glad you are able to use art as a safe way to play out the non consent. We’ve noticed a fair few friends we have that are artists do similar things with their art to experience it in a safer way. Hope it gives you the desired safe way to experience it you want.
I am getting to realize that shame is involved with a lot of these kinda issues because shame makes you want to hide, so it never gets aired out and fixed. Like you could have had a conversation with your mom on how her punishment felt and she might realize she messed up and etc… but that never happened, because as a kid you assume parents are right about everything.
There are antidotes. Like… making comics!
There are antidotes. Like… making comics!
Wow, it's really interesting seeing this past of Star being shined upon. Her younger self is cute here too, love the kid logic.
But I also want to say to the creator, I'm sorry you had to go through that abuse. I admit, I haven't paid much attention to any of the text boxes until this one. I think basing Marello on your previous experiences does explain why I hate him so much and I say this as someone who does enjoy non-con ABDL stuff. It always felt more genuinely disgusting compared to other stuff I see like with the rich family in your other comic, House Broken. It may be hypocritical but that's how I feel about the whole thing.
On a final note, It's good that you're finding an outlet for this stuff and you're able to help Star
But I also want to say to the creator, I'm sorry you had to go through that abuse. I admit, I haven't paid much attention to any of the text boxes until this one. I think basing Marello on your previous experiences does explain why I hate him so much and I say this as someone who does enjoy non-con ABDL stuff. It always felt more genuinely disgusting compared to other stuff I see like with the rich family in your other comic, House Broken. It may be hypocritical but that's how I feel about the whole thing.
On a final note, It's good that you're finding an outlet for this stuff and you're able to help Star
Loving the consistency of having one sock on XD
Also I’m so happy that you can deal with trauma through art. Life can be hard, incredibly so. But you’ve overcome that and made a wonderful comic that helps others.
This comic really helped me grow comfortable with my little side and really accept myself.
Also I’m so happy that you can deal with trauma through art. Life can be hard, incredibly so. But you’ve overcome that and made a wonderful comic that helps others.
This comic really helped me grow comfortable with my little side and really accept myself.
This page opened up so many memories for me, I was also the oldest out of my siblings n I remember always being jealous of my sisters when they were babies...
I remember always wanting to know what it felt like wearing diapers again an always felt embarrassed n scared to say it out loud.. i remember one instance where I was having a tantrum in front of everyone over something like a cassette tape and I remember my dad shouting at me saying I was acting like a baby..
I vividly remember him threatening to put me back in diapers because he told me he still had some in the attic, at the time I was scared to oppose and say yes buh deep down I wanted to.. I'll never forget that moment .
I remember always wanting to know what it felt like wearing diapers again an always felt embarrassed n scared to say it out loud.. i remember one instance where I was having a tantrum in front of everyone over something like a cassette tape and I remember my dad shouting at me saying I was acting like a baby..
I vividly remember him threatening to put me back in diapers because he told me he still had some in the attic, at the time I was scared to oppose and say yes buh deep down I wanted to.. I'll never forget that moment .
I appreciate that you are willing to talk about your process and feelings through these comics; its helped me as someone who is still processing a lot of my Newly Uncovered ABDL feelings and how they are linked to a lot of complicated childhood issues
Thank you for making comics, for real
Thank you for making comics, for real
Your blurb there dredged up an old memory from when i was around.... 14? ish? of a similar event. undiagnosed autism at the time meant i got overwhelmed at the slightest raised voice and i couldnt control the kneejerk reflex to ugly sob anytime someone was even a little upset with me. Mom took it as me acting like a baby so she forced me into a towel diaper since i wanted to be a baby so bad. I then got in MORE shit later for not taking it off after she left my room even though i was terrified of getting in trouble for dodging my punishment. I was stuck. i would have been yelled at no matter what i did.
I never actually saw that as abusive until just now. I knew it was fucked up but i never saw it has actual ABUSE before....
damnit now i need to sit with that for a while and see what that means for my train of thought.
I never actually saw that as abusive until just now. I knew it was fucked up but i never saw it has actual ABUSE before....
damnit now i need to sit with that for a while and see what that means for my train of thought.
Same here. My mother was diagnosed with Narsissist issues and me with bipolarity. Was a long list of abuse behaviors. Still live with her even I am already 29 years old soon. My brother and I suffer so many stuff that now in our adulthood reflects a lot (he for example has angry issues). My father Is healthy uwu but now that he Is working less far from home, he Is noticing all these behaviors. Oh well...
And I am Abdl.... Since 9 or 10 years old. Before internet came to our lifes, I feel alone thinking AND wishing to be babied and use diapers. Part of the earlist memorias I have that may lead to this impulses were:
1. Seeing a "special kid" (a cousin) in the house of my grandparents, he was like 4 years younger than me and when he was around, attention, hugs and all the good things were given to him. So the Time I visit, I was ignore because of this kid (down syndrome) and I remember I cry in silence by being ignore by everyone, also, like a cherry on the top, I heard from others say "check His diaper" and I was like "a six year old still in diapers? Its not fair".
2. I remember yo have this feeling growing old that .. I wish to spend More Time With my mom, like those "Happy TV comercials" that mom and (generally a baby or Toddler) are dancing and playing). IDK why but have like this strange feeling of wanting that so bad while, More years ahead, my brother confess that my mom in those early years was not so sweet and not so into patience, that cause for example that she usually ignores me in the crib while doing house chores or that I loose some teeth from trying to get our of the crib or have a burn un my hand With some stuff at the kitchen.
3. When I have this baby fantasies, around 8 till 10 years old, I feel peace, also I was bullied at school by my overweight and by using glasses and by being the freaky girl that play videogames or draw. So thinking and wishing to be little, was a relief.
Now I am 29 yo.
And I am Abdl.... Since 9 or 10 years old. Before internet came to our lifes, I feel alone thinking AND wishing to be babied and use diapers. Part of the earlist memorias I have that may lead to this impulses were:
1. Seeing a "special kid" (a cousin) in the house of my grandparents, he was like 4 years younger than me and when he was around, attention, hugs and all the good things were given to him. So the Time I visit, I was ignore because of this kid (down syndrome) and I remember I cry in silence by being ignore by everyone, also, like a cherry on the top, I heard from others say "check His diaper" and I was like "a six year old still in diapers? Its not fair".
2. I remember yo have this feeling growing old that .. I wish to spend More Time With my mom, like those "Happy TV comercials" that mom and (generally a baby or Toddler) are dancing and playing). IDK why but have like this strange feeling of wanting that so bad while, More years ahead, my brother confess that my mom in those early years was not so sweet and not so into patience, that cause for example that she usually ignores me in the crib while doing house chores or that I loose some teeth from trying to get our of the crib or have a burn un my hand With some stuff at the kitchen.
3. When I have this baby fantasies, around 8 till 10 years old, I feel peace, also I was bullied at school by my overweight and by using glasses and by being the freaky girl that play videogames or draw. So thinking and wishing to be little, was a relief.
Now I am 29 yo.
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