This isn’t supposed to be like a doom and gloom pic, but it’s more just i guess trying to open up with these conflicting feelings i have online as a very socially inept person I am.
To my close friends online (Those of you should know) this isn’t gonna refer to you, more just in general to those that don’t interact me as much.
Cuz I’m always watching and seeing all my other friends with other people, popular artists, doing group pics together, saying that their playing video games together and making art.

And I’m just like, is there something I’m doing wrong? Is there a reason I don’t know? Being too weird or awkward? Something I should be doing more of? Not being much of an online person? Am i having too much expectations for what I believe in online friends?
I know I’m not really interesting of a person, or that I’m not successful enough to connect with. But I’m still human… and sometimes it really hurts to be neglected and I hate these jealous feelings i have.

I wanna become better, and I have a lot of time ahead of me hopefully, I just wanna get better at having more friends, but just not sure how to do it. Do you guys feels the same?