I think I drew this during my first Midwest Furfest night at my first poly girlfriend's shared condo, when if nothing else around then, I finally had the realization that I actually really really disliked being associated with being male at all.

I also discovered I'm very susceptible to hypnosis thanks to a friend of said poly girlfriend, but that's not important to the art. She was supportive of my journey though, and even gave me advice about my mom and any reactions she'd have over me being even vaguely transfem.

There's a lot of things about my body I'd change if I had the means: No body hair beyond my brows and hair, at *least* internal balls because FUCK having pain spheres, oh heavens to god do I wish I wouldn't sweat like a fucking pig over the slightest of overheatings, overchilling or still air because nothing makes me feel more disgusting than wearing a sweat wick I can feel drenched under my red hoodie. Longer nails, longer hair (I fucking love ponytails thank you Laura Croft and Zero (MMX) for awakening me as a PS1-playing kid.) I keep flip flopping over if I'd want breasts in the end but considering my journey started over me breaking down into sobbing at realizing I'd never afford to even try estrogen (which is how I learned I really wanted to, badly, and that I hated being male,) I think that's going to be an eventual yeah?

...So anyways here's my ART-Utilikin 4d20 looking a bit more fem than initially designed. I think she's still figuring out things too on top of the whole recent Utilikin conversion she went through. You don't need to be one in their setting for access to HRT or implants like having a tail, but it's definitely a plus on top of everything else!

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