Ya know, when I wrote this I didn’t even realize I had based this off my psychiatrist at the time. I kept going to appointments but was unable to properly advocate for myself so every time I would leave super frustrated. She was incredibly sweet I was just still unlearning fawning and had so much brain fog and fatigue I could barely speak. Was also struggling with therapy, I was deeply unhappy with my therapist and didn’t realize I could find somebody better. Luckily I have, nowadays I have the sweetest goddamn therapist out there. TLDR: advocate for yourself or something, sorry it’s too early for me to coherently get my words together