idk who i'm more disgusted with: me or myself (i'm gonna kick my ass)

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with calculated responses
words get redefined
one-sided effort
and the other side is hurt

over time
i began to use the word 'friend'
cautiously, sparingly
friends are like family
but even that is shrinking
over time

its not who you know of
but who you know well
so when the light at the end of the tunnel
turns out to be an oncoming train
what comes next?
trainwreck? disaster?

you took my door
and now it wont shut
cause i cant reach it
in order to close it
how do i get out?