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Progress Report: Abilify & Vyvanse
4 years ago
So Vyvanse absolutely did help with focus; I was better able to write than ever, but it also vastly worsened my feelings of mania during a manic episode, to EXTREME levels. I'm embarrassed, extremely, with what I was turned into and never want to go back to that ever again.
Abilify has been there to help with the bipolar disorder, but since I was taken off wellbutrin and vyvanse, it has been very difficult for me to manage my ADHD, I've found it difficult to sit through an episode of Columbo with mom without moving from three different seats and doing some exercising while watching, and I'll cycle through seven to eight games because of lack of focus.
I feel like I have to become a whole new person; my Second Life account's inventory has been nuked after I lost my password for it, which just further solidifies to me how much of a new person I have to be everywhere. In life, I can't just keep living the way I have been doing -- which has been escaping from the world indefinitely. I need to live, I need to do things, and I need to actually get a job for once.
I've had a pathetically slow start to live. I'm 36 years old, but it feels like I'm still in my teens for how immature I am.
Abilify has been there to help with the bipolar disorder, but since I was taken off wellbutrin and vyvanse, it has been very difficult for me to manage my ADHD, I've found it difficult to sit through an episode of Columbo with mom without moving from three different seats and doing some exercising while watching, and I'll cycle through seven to eight games because of lack of focus.
I feel like I have to become a whole new person; my Second Life account's inventory has been nuked after I lost my password for it, which just further solidifies to me how much of a new person I have to be everywhere. In life, I can't just keep living the way I have been doing -- which has been escaping from the world indefinitely. I need to live, I need to do things, and I need to actually get a job for once.
I've had a pathetically slow start to live. I'm 36 years old, but it feels like I'm still in my teens for how immature I am.
I've had other friends who have had to deal with things like that. One is both bipolar and schizophrenic. Fortunately, he figured out the cycles with the medication fairly early on, and when he attended some of the local barbecues, he would always tell the host exactly how long ago he had taken his meds so he would know exactly how far along on the mental swing he would be later on.
But considering the fact that he spent a lot of his early life before being properly diagnosed... I know he could sympathise with the feelings of having had 'maturing' put on hold for several years.