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Dissociation
4 years ago
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Oh yeah I'm dissociating today. Didn't realize that's what it was 'til now, like 24 hours after it started. Idk why idk why oh but my brain is runninggggggg
I think it's paired with my ADD to create a cacophony beyond my control. I can kinda sit and meditate and totally space out in a way that doesn't feel too bad but it's strange. I don't know what it's doing. I feel like I'm free writing now, my brain is just whizzing through things. I wonder if I opened it up a bit?? And I'm just not used to having faster thoughts back?? Hm. Well, how will I deal with this? Perhaps this is a blessing in disguise.
I don't even know what I'm thinking. Brain brain brain brain brain goinggggg
Ah. Okay. Let's try and figure out how to use this. I think I can. I think I can use this. Well... hmm. I keep getting distracted. Hm. How can I--how can I focus?? How can I focus????? Fuck.
Maybe a free write is all it has to be. Maybe I can just do that and sling it out there. Maybe... maybe that's not bad. How can I do this? How can I figure this out? What am I even doing? I don't know. I am dissociating and having a lot of running thoughts and getting distracted over and over and I need some time and space alone but the bedroom is so cold which I hate and I can't stand it, I can't stand it... It's freezing why do I have to live in a freezing room it isn't fair, it isn't fair... gghhhh. Yeah, we need to change this. I don't deserve to be freezing while my fiance sleeps in a warm room like it's nothing. I'm the one with additional heat regulation issues. I need to have this taken seriously. I really do.
I think it's paired with my ADD to create a cacophony beyond my control. I can kinda sit and meditate and totally space out in a way that doesn't feel too bad but it's strange. I don't know what it's doing. I feel like I'm free writing now, my brain is just whizzing through things. I wonder if I opened it up a bit?? And I'm just not used to having faster thoughts back?? Hm. Well, how will I deal with this? Perhaps this is a blessing in disguise.
I don't even know what I'm thinking. Brain brain brain brain brain goinggggg
Ah. Okay. Let's try and figure out how to use this. I think I can. I think I can use this. Well... hmm. I keep getting distracted. Hm. How can I--how can I focus?? How can I focus????? Fuck.
Maybe a free write is all it has to be. Maybe I can just do that and sling it out there. Maybe... maybe that's not bad. How can I do this? How can I figure this out? What am I even doing? I don't know. I am dissociating and having a lot of running thoughts and getting distracted over and over and I need some time and space alone but the bedroom is so cold which I hate and I can't stand it, I can't stand it... It's freezing why do I have to live in a freezing room it isn't fair, it isn't fair... gghhhh. Yeah, we need to change this. I don't deserve to be freezing while my fiance sleeps in a warm room like it's nothing. I'm the one with additional heat regulation issues. I need to have this taken seriously. I really do.
