Is this derealization, or have i been derealized all this time and this is the dropping of it??? Because I can definitely still feel my senses... I can feel them more finely than usual. And... my depth of vision has been almost constantly active, strangely enough. That usually only happens when I'm very happy or when I focus on it. Am I...? Waking up in some sense?

See the thing is, in the past two days I got more stimulation of my senses than I have gotten in years. It's the kind of thing I used to get often, but since we don't have much money we can't do now. When I was upper middle class I got out and got to see new things often and have good experiences. Living in a tiny apartment has stripped my mind of a LOT of what I used to have going on up there. You really do have to have a plethora of new experiences to keep your brain alive and tripping. Maybe this is just... awakening that faster level of mind that used to be constant for me. Maybe the stimulation from the vacation allowed that part of me to rev to life again. I have been having a lot of new experiences lately. Maybe... maybe.

Ahh, if this is a good thing, I'll have to adjust to it. It feels like... potentially a good thing. However, I will need to make myself less snappish when my concentration is interrupted. Hm, reminds me of when I was younger. Yeah... I do remember this feeling. I am going to need a fortress of solitude to deal with this I think, if what I think might be happening is in fact happening.