I feel you, its pretty much the same for me. If you dont mind I can poke you on Telegram and we can chat a bit.

Sure, I'd like that <3 thank you for the comment

A) Twitter is full of news and assholes, and bad news you constantly notice.
B) The fandom isn't as welcoming as people say it is; full of gatekeeping fucks
C) Even when you get friends in this world, at least online they're all about what you can do for -them-.

I haven't been on Twitter for years now, but you're right. Thanks for the comment!

I underastand you here. It's not like you convince yourself about friends hating ya, its more like they are changing for good or bad for exemple and you dont see yourself fitting with them anymore. Life make us change and sometimes you dont even recognize your friends. It hurts inside and you are willing to drop everything tather than beeing hurt indirectly.

Thank you Mich, I really appreciate your words <3

Its why I'll never get a Twitter, or ever use Facebook again, as for the sites admins...er well...idk, i know one artist who got a computer from 'Neer and every time the artist does commissions it always includes a piece for the dude, encountered him once and he was a jerkoff
I mean do what makes you happy dude, if its any consolation, there was a guy on youtube, Fredrik Kunsen if i remember right, he did a "down the rabbit hole" video, FA was brought up once opening up in 2005 but, DeadwingDork did one much more in depth about 'Neers drama, theres no site as established despite all the drama as FA, as for the fandom, I really blame twitter for making people jerks

It's really easy to get into your head and depressed if you are alone. Not everyone needs to talk every day. Maybe you do. That's okay. The world is harsh an empathetic people suffer a lot, you have to find your safe spot, make your friends aware of how you're feeling.