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4 years ago
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So I got my mojo back but I've been pretty busy lately with doctor's appointments and work. It's really hard to juggle it all. Plus, I've been back on my bullshit with Temtem. It's fun to play when I'm exhausted from work or if I have an hour before I gotta go into my shift.
Things have been ok... Wish I could say they're better but I'll take it. I'm having fun lately and I guess I couldn't ask for more.
I've been worried sick, quite literally, about Flickie as his insomnia has worsened over the past year. Weed doesn't seem to help anymore, so I'm not sure what else to try. OTC drugs don't help and he's not really interested in seeing a doctor. Says that they probably won't help him, but I mentioned he could probably get an rx for Ambien or something. He seemed uninterested. So IDK. He's really panicking about it too, so I'm not sure why he won't TRY. His other mental illnesses are inflamed too, but I think the insomnia is triggering them. But I'm also wondering if they're triggering the insomnia, and he's in a horrible downward spiral. He considered going to the ER one night after 3 days of being unable to sleep, but when he Googled if that was a good idea, Google said it's basically pointless, and the ER would send him home for wasting their time. I think that might be why he's uninterested in trying to schedule an apt with a regular doctor.
I of course am struggling with my own mental illnesses too, but I've been trying to be as quiet as I can about them lately because of how much he's struggling. I don't know how else to help. So all I can think of is to avoid making him worry about me. I mean he KNOWS I have problems that don't go away... I'm medicated and talk to a therapist/psychiatrist monthly, but I figure if I don't mention it, it isn't immediate.
I don't mean to worry y'all or be a downer, I just wanted to vent somewhere, and this felt like the platform to do it. It's why I made a separate account for my commissions. I hate pouring my emotions all over my business, so I figure if that stuff is in it's own account, it's "safe" from my bullshit.
It's probably going to be ok. I mean, it has to be. I'm in love with my high-school sweetheart. This is the life I'm supposed to have. I'm happy with my relationship... so why can't we just be happy in general... we have everything we want.
Things have been ok... Wish I could say they're better but I'll take it. I'm having fun lately and I guess I couldn't ask for more.
I've been worried sick, quite literally, about Flickie as his insomnia has worsened over the past year. Weed doesn't seem to help anymore, so I'm not sure what else to try. OTC drugs don't help and he's not really interested in seeing a doctor. Says that they probably won't help him, but I mentioned he could probably get an rx for Ambien or something. He seemed uninterested. So IDK. He's really panicking about it too, so I'm not sure why he won't TRY. His other mental illnesses are inflamed too, but I think the insomnia is triggering them. But I'm also wondering if they're triggering the insomnia, and he's in a horrible downward spiral. He considered going to the ER one night after 3 days of being unable to sleep, but when he Googled if that was a good idea, Google said it's basically pointless, and the ER would send him home for wasting their time. I think that might be why he's uninterested in trying to schedule an apt with a regular doctor.
I of course am struggling with my own mental illnesses too, but I've been trying to be as quiet as I can about them lately because of how much he's struggling. I don't know how else to help. So all I can think of is to avoid making him worry about me. I mean he KNOWS I have problems that don't go away... I'm medicated and talk to a therapist/psychiatrist monthly, but I figure if I don't mention it, it isn't immediate.
I don't mean to worry y'all or be a downer, I just wanted to vent somewhere, and this felt like the platform to do it. It's why I made a separate account for my commissions. I hate pouring my emotions all over my business, so I figure if that stuff is in it's own account, it's "safe" from my bullshit.
It's probably going to be ok. I mean, it has to be. I'm in love with my high-school sweetheart. This is the life I'm supposed to have. I'm happy with my relationship... so why can't we just be happy in general... we have everything we want.
Let me know if you need someone to talk to. I'm always here.