I was approved for SSI. My first check will come in January, though they said I'm owed a check for December as well, so they'll send 2 checks next month.

This means I don't have to worry about money anymore. I'm finally free.

I can't get too excited for that though. I've been trying my entire relationship with Flickie to get this and the year he died, I get approved? How is that fair. We could have been so comfortable...

But I digress. I can take care of my cats and my needs on my own. I can repay my dad for paying for my phone this year. I can get a roommate if I wish. Although until anything becomes available to me, my mom is my roommate. She's nice, so I'm ok with that.

I started a powerful antidepressant called Trintellix. I'm still quite depressed, but I do feel ...less fucked up. It's hard to explain, but I know it's doing its job. My doc will probably up the dose though cuz I'm sure it can do better.

Maybe I'll be inclined to draw more when I get things I need. Maybe I'll start to feel happy when I can be comfortable. Maybe...