Hey folks. Lot of you may realize I've been in a weird mood. Well, here's no excuse or reason, but explanation:

I haven't had a personal Xmas for a long time. My immediate family never cared much about it--and to be honest, neither do I.

This tends to make Xmases very lonely for me. I don't blame anyone or anything for it beyond circumstance, that doesn't make it any less difficult.

My point is this: the Holiday Season, as it were, makes me a very, very, very unpleasant person. Not bad, not great, just weird to be around. Because it makes me feel unpleasant and weird. This is no one's fault but my own, at the end of the day' I'm just not wired mentally or personally for this bullshit.

I've taken a lot of paid time off recently so I can just get rid of this fucking crap I feel every year, which was complicated by my room-mate moving out--don't go after her for it; this was mutual agreed to be best for her. It doesn't make it any less difficult, nor does it add any less to the weirdness I feel this time every year.

Just an explanation for the oddity that will be me pretty much until after New Years'.

Hope you all have a good one.