***********Edit: I will contact soon to everyone with their finished pieces thanks again for commission me and understand me :3 I love you all




Happy holidays to everyone

I'm not sure how to start this.
I don't usually tell a lot about my private life, no more than; '' setbacks, climatic conditions, that prevent me from working or that I am ill '' Usually in private.

I know that's wrong, considering how much people have been patient with me, about waiting for their pieces.
I appreciate it, very much, even that they trust me to bring all their ideas to life.

Years ago, My whole life crumbled by the dead of loved ones
That's sunks me in a severe depression, I was almost to throw it all.
But I'd thought. I've already come this far, let's try to stay.

I tried therapy, drugs, activities, exercise, buying myself things or acquiring things that I did not want before. Some of those things worked at first, but my life stayed the same.

All that time I was helping a friend in many things, even being depressed, I even helped him in his own depression.
But we all have a limit and I had reached mine, I was about to give up, until, she came into my life, a bull terrier who made me responsible for her life helped me a lot to continue
So, I went back to drawing and working.

Up to that point, my friend's behavior towards me make me feel like a burden, so another friend invited me to live with her for a while.

Even living with her, all my income was to maintain a house where I no longer lived, but it was still my responsibility to my '' roommate '' I never really had a moment to rest.

Sooner or later I returned to live with my roommate, I was still very depressed and medicated, I attended therapy, but my therapists were not very good.

There were many changes happening that I was not ready for.
which worsened my depression and my constant state of denial.
What bothered my friend a lot, I know that I should not say it nor do I want wrong judgments to be made about him, since I am telling "my version" and even if I tried to tell his side, it is still my perspective.
I'm just counting this, to give a bit of context.

As things got worse, he came to call me a nuisance or I'm ruining of his life on purpose, although he apologized for said that, those words were etched in my mind.

As you could see noticed, from 2019 to early 2021 I was barely able to draw or upload some work.
Hardly back to work. But I had to do it for all those people who once trusted me. Little by little I was delivering pending jobs and accepting new ones, it seemed that things were going to be better until the problems with my friend got worse

Nothing make me mad in this world more than fight for money
literally I give him all of my last peny and every for the home maintenance. and maintain him when he dont work due '' depression or sleep problems '' that he blame me for them after.

he began to make claims that he did not work for my behavior and that I was responsible for it. That made me not want to go on again. But tried to stay focus but endend throwing drawing for months, until a game that I knew by chance caught my attention, and I started playing it (something I had not done in a long time), little by little I was regaining the desire to draw again, and continue the pending work, Until my friend again started to say that I did not draw well, that I was stuck and that he was better than me, I told him that he did not have to tell me those things was true or a lie, `` how do you intend to help someone depressed by telling them that not good and what gets in the way? or that he does nothing for his life or that he is depressed because he can / wants)

From that point, which was approximately between September and October, I lost it again, I thought about stopping drawing and leaving everything for peace. I only thought about finishing the pending commissions and finishing it all.

this is just a short version of the bad history for sure, even If I feel bad, and thinking on not draw anymore I know my responsability to my commissioners just working slow, because I want to do a good work after at all, because are not your fault
I don't intended to blame someone, but I considered appropriate to show Why I'm delaying so bad

The new year has caught up with me and I want to take a leap of faith.
I am working hard to finish your works, thank you very much for waiting for me.

Thanks for understand