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This past week...
3 years ago
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In the past week I've been removed from no less than 6 groups.
I've been blocked, I've had friends who I saw as brothers and sisters simply walk away and leave me alone.
Twitter has become a toxic place.
I was planning on working on my art to hopefully finally get into a workable place to take commissions.
and the community gave me a clear message that I am not welcome here.
The opinions I expressed were in ignorance, they were poorly spoken with little regard.
I acted out of character and now I am dealing with the consequences..
The things posted by an artist on Twitter in an unrelated incident has also painted me as support for harassment and stalking and as a result a large number of people have lumped my name in with the suspected behavior of another, all by association...
This past week has removed all comforts I've built here in this community.
I cannot trust anyone, and I've lost the trust of people I valued the most.
I don't even know where to go from here..
At the moment I'm just existing, and trying to just continue life without the social life I had online.
It's difficult but I am managing..
I don't think I will ever be able to return to how things were, because I don't have the power to convince people I am not what they think I am..
If you happen to read this and have been involved, or decided that I am not a favorable person anymore, I extend my apologies, and ask that you give me a chance to show you who I am..
I feel like many people have forgotten what I do and how much I selflessly love my friends and the community that made me feel like I had a purpose..
In the past week I've been removed from no less than 6 groups.
I've been blocked, I've had friends who I saw as brothers and sisters simply walk away and leave me alone.
Twitter has become a toxic place.
I was planning on working on my art to hopefully finally get into a workable place to take commissions.
and the community gave me a clear message that I am not welcome here.
The opinions I expressed were in ignorance, they were poorly spoken with little regard.
I acted out of character and now I am dealing with the consequences..
The things posted by an artist on Twitter in an unrelated incident has also painted me as support for harassment and stalking and as a result a large number of people have lumped my name in with the suspected behavior of another, all by association...
This past week has removed all comforts I've built here in this community.
I cannot trust anyone, and I've lost the trust of people I valued the most.
I don't even know where to go from here..
At the moment I'm just existing, and trying to just continue life without the social life I had online.
It's difficult but I am managing..
I don't think I will ever be able to return to how things were, because I don't have the power to convince people I am not what they think I am..
If you happen to read this and have been involved, or decided that I am not a favorable person anymore, I extend my apologies, and ask that you give me a chance to show you who I am..
I feel like many people have forgotten what I do and how much I selflessly love my friends and the community that made me feel like I had a purpose..
I know you're an awesome person by what i see and listen from people. I'm not envolved directly with anything (yet, cuz i believe it's not a if, but when it's gonna be someone's else turn, me included), but i know there's people that don't care at anything as long as they can destroy someone's life.... happened with tato, with others, and it's a huge hit it happened with you now.
I know things can't go back as it were. Just know that you still have friends that know how you are. the ones that left you alone shouldn't be called friends now... this experience is like a huge filter for everyone.
i'm always here for ya, on the best way i can be.
They hate labels, they hate categories of things. They don't know people.
Once we step away from the computer screen and touch grass, you can't tell them apart either.
We're all flawed.... i'm sure you got lots of good in you, and people are blind to character too often.