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3 years ago
Hey y'all, I have an...odd update for you. e~e; Before I dive into that mess, I wanted to let my commissioners know I got my Trello up and running again, so you can track the progress of your piece there! I struggle with replying to messages at times due to my mental illness, so hopefully this will help quell any fears between communications. ;u;
Onto the update: yesterday I found out that for the last few months I had been on the wrong medication. When I got my meds in NE for the first time the pharmacy said I received an alternate/generic for my medication, which is supposed to mean another brand/manufacturer...but apparently they gave me a different medication and just...decided not to tell me that.
I looked into it and the med they gave me (AB) is a combination of the medication I was on initially (B) and another drug (A). AB and B are both generics for a brand name medication, but given that one includes an additional compound, they are not the same. It's like saying Theraflu and Tylenol are the same thing bc they both contain Acetaminophen.
Essentially, at the end of last year I was unknowingly started, at full dosage, on a new medication that was both not the concentration of B I needed, and added a whole new thing that I (nor my doctor as far as I know) were properly informed of.
I explain all this so that you can hopefully understand me saying: I'm about 95% sure the reason my last few months have been so hard is bc of this med switch. While yes, times were tough, my normal reaction is to stubbornly crawl my way out, not lay down and die like I tried to (mood/behavior changes and suicidal thoughts are both side effects of AB). Also, I've been back on B several days now and uh...I feel almost like myself again. For the first time since last year. ;;
The good side of all this is, provided I'm right about AB being the cause, I will likely start doing a whole heck of a lot better in the coming days-weeks. This means I will be able to devote much more time to art and streaming, instead of having to, essentially, babysit my broken brain...which would be fucking awesome! ;w;
The bad is that now I get to come to terms with losing 3 months of my life (and almost all of it) to a pharmacy error. : ' D It's a lot and I have no idea if I need to like...contact someone about this, but hey I'm just glad I might not be stuck in depression hell. SOBS
All said, I'm still probably gunna be slow on replies and art for a bit, but I'm doing more every day and you should see some WIPS (at least) here soon! ;u;
TL;DR: Commissioners can now see progress on my Trello (link above and on my profile). Also, a pharmacy gave me the wrong medication claiming it was my usual med and it broke my brain, but at least now I have a fixable reason for the brain bads lately. Working on getting back to the artist I wanted to be when I first returned!
Note: I'm not using the names of the meds bc they are heavily stigmatized. ✌
(Sorry if none of this makes sense, it doesn't make sense to me either and I'm in hell lmao)
Onto the update: yesterday I found out that for the last few months I had been on the wrong medication. When I got my meds in NE for the first time the pharmacy said I received an alternate/generic for my medication, which is supposed to mean another brand/manufacturer...but apparently they gave me a different medication and just...decided not to tell me that.
I looked into it and the med they gave me (AB) is a combination of the medication I was on initially (B) and another drug (A). AB and B are both generics for a brand name medication, but given that one includes an additional compound, they are not the same. It's like saying Theraflu and Tylenol are the same thing bc they both contain Acetaminophen.
Essentially, at the end of last year I was unknowingly started, at full dosage, on a new medication that was both not the concentration of B I needed, and added a whole new thing that I (nor my doctor as far as I know) were properly informed of.
I explain all this so that you can hopefully understand me saying: I'm about 95% sure the reason my last few months have been so hard is bc of this med switch. While yes, times were tough, my normal reaction is to stubbornly crawl my way out, not lay down and die like I tried to (mood/behavior changes and suicidal thoughts are both side effects of AB). Also, I've been back on B several days now and uh...I feel almost like myself again. For the first time since last year. ;;
The good side of all this is, provided I'm right about AB being the cause, I will likely start doing a whole heck of a lot better in the coming days-weeks. This means I will be able to devote much more time to art and streaming, instead of having to, essentially, babysit my broken brain...which would be fucking awesome! ;w;
The bad is that now I get to come to terms with losing 3 months of my life (and almost all of it) to a pharmacy error. : ' D It's a lot and I have no idea if I need to like...contact someone about this, but hey I'm just glad I might not be stuck in depression hell. SOBS
All said, I'm still probably gunna be slow on replies and art for a bit, but I'm doing more every day and you should see some WIPS (at least) here soon! ;u;
TL;DR: Commissioners can now see progress on my Trello (link above and on my profile). Also, a pharmacy gave me the wrong medication claiming it was my usual med and it broke my brain, but at least now I have a fixable reason for the brain bads lately. Working on getting back to the artist I wanted to be when I first returned!
Note: I'm not using the names of the meds bc they are heavily stigmatized. ✌
(Sorry if none of this makes sense, it doesn't make sense to me either and I'm in hell lmao)
