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This month has been…something.
3 years ago
General
Hey there everyone. I wanted to put out a journal because…things happened and might be changing for the better. There’s been some rough patches too, but one thing at a time.
Macro March Stuff
Yup as we all know it’s that time of the year for all the big boys and girls. Unfortunately I haven’t really had any money to spare partaking in the events, and I ended up kinda…isolated in my interests so I didn’t get to really do anything by now but I do hope everyone else has had their fun and bigness in healthy doses.
Freedom Obtained
The main reason I was making this journal was to post this part of the story. About a week ago, I had a bit of a falling out with someone…but the thing was, this was a falling out that was a long time coming. The person in question was someone that I was giving up a lot for to try and make things work. It twisted my interests, took away a lot of my happiness and left me lying to myself everything was going to be alright…but it finally reached the breaking point and I could no longer say it’s fine. I went quiet for a couple days…and they came back broken, apologized about what happened, then said to leave. Maybe it was wrong of me to take advantage of that state but it was the chance to free myself.
The night that happened, I felt such an immense release of freedom…I no longer feel like I have to appease someone. I can focus on my own happiness, my own interests again and feel like I no longer have to be ashamed. The big cat felt a rush of relief…and really, I feel like I can be open with what I want to enjoy again. Maybe now in the future I can go more openly about the fun aspects of being big once again.
Last Two Days
The last two days involved waking up to news, for lack of better terms.
Yesterday was waking up to someone returning after years of absence…most of the fandom section already knows who I’m talking about but if you don’t know look here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10170071/
Today, well…the news was a lot less enjoyable. Waking up to see a game that I’ve been playing basically every day since it came out will be closing its doors soon:
https://twitter.com/GoNintendoTweet/status/1506155207280967680?s=20&t=npbMy5COiqP2q47SWcFJGw
To see the news was…very disheartening and makes me feel like years of work are going to waste. I really wish it didn’t have to end this way.
That’s about all I can think of for today. I’m going to try being less depressive going forward now with what happened, and who knows, maybe one day return to the overwhelmingly sized feline I want to be.
Take care everyone.
Macro March Stuff
Yup as we all know it’s that time of the year for all the big boys and girls. Unfortunately I haven’t really had any money to spare partaking in the events, and I ended up kinda…isolated in my interests so I didn’t get to really do anything by now but I do hope everyone else has had their fun and bigness in healthy doses.
Freedom Obtained
The main reason I was making this journal was to post this part of the story. About a week ago, I had a bit of a falling out with someone…but the thing was, this was a falling out that was a long time coming. The person in question was someone that I was giving up a lot for to try and make things work. It twisted my interests, took away a lot of my happiness and left me lying to myself everything was going to be alright…but it finally reached the breaking point and I could no longer say it’s fine. I went quiet for a couple days…and they came back broken, apologized about what happened, then said to leave. Maybe it was wrong of me to take advantage of that state but it was the chance to free myself.
The night that happened, I felt such an immense release of freedom…I no longer feel like I have to appease someone. I can focus on my own happiness, my own interests again and feel like I no longer have to be ashamed. The big cat felt a rush of relief…and really, I feel like I can be open with what I want to enjoy again. Maybe now in the future I can go more openly about the fun aspects of being big once again.
Last Two Days
The last two days involved waking up to news, for lack of better terms.
Yesterday was waking up to someone returning after years of absence…most of the fandom section already knows who I’m talking about but if you don’t know look here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10170071/
Today, well…the news was a lot less enjoyable. Waking up to see a game that I’ve been playing basically every day since it came out will be closing its doors soon:
https://twitter.com/GoNintendoTweet/status/1506155207280967680?s=20&t=npbMy5COiqP2q47SWcFJGw
To see the news was…very disheartening and makes me feel like years of work are going to waste. I really wish it didn’t have to end this way.
That’s about all I can think of for today. I’m going to try being less depressive going forward now with what happened, and who knows, maybe one day return to the overwhelmingly sized feline I want to be.
Take care everyone.
Victni
~victni
Big hugs for big cat <3
rakarra
~rakarra
I know that SOME day this is going to happen to my favorite mobile game: Final Fantasy Record Keeper. I don't trust "mobile platform" games that rely on some sort of server, and I spend very little (or no) money on them because I don't have the trust that the game will not just disappear randomly.
