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Less than an ideal Spring for 2022...
3 years ago
Okay… We almost to the half way point of the year… and oh man… these years are NOT getting easier…
Losing Betty White on New Year’s Eve, weeks before her 100th Birthday, was a lot to take in, and so far; we seem to be losing actors/talented people from various degrees so far in 2022… April especially.
Not only did we lost Gilbert Gottfried, but I learned that good amount of my friends have lost some friends and family members, as well as my own Aunt passed away before I get give one last visit… and ALL of that happened with ONE week… OF EASTER ITSELF!
Sorry to say that despite being Easter, a season of rebirth and change… there hasn’t been much good stuff to be hopeful or rise with… just seems more like dead weight… I feel like a lot of best efforts have been fruitless of late…. I am either trying too hard for others that I end up exhausted in multiple ways. Like I feel like I am doo WAY too much just to be noticed in general for 5-seconds or just being this weird imposing weirdo. In fact: I seemed to have bothered a few users by a good amount: both rather new acquaintances and some old friends alike, and right now I am not too sure how I come off in general.
I see other things people would like, while I barely do anything for myself… outside of junk-food I should be cutting down on… still: my dayjob has me DO a lot for others too for long exhausting hours… all for pay that I can’t live on alone… and just barely helps those who need it.
Still… despite all the short comings I have been dealing with: I am trying to enjoy myself bit by bit. Enjoying playing through what video games I can play, drawing what I can draw, and seeing some posts I make getting SOME kind of glow up… even if for a day or two. With this small amount, I will try to push on: Focus more on my skills and my happiness than just general appeal to others. I will still be considerate to them and give them a lift when they need it, I will just try not to do it as an impulse.
I hope everyone else feeling the weight of the year can do the do the same to make it to the next year.
Stay safe and sane.
Losing Betty White on New Year’s Eve, weeks before her 100th Birthday, was a lot to take in, and so far; we seem to be losing actors/talented people from various degrees so far in 2022… April especially.
Not only did we lost Gilbert Gottfried, but I learned that good amount of my friends have lost some friends and family members, as well as my own Aunt passed away before I get give one last visit… and ALL of that happened with ONE week… OF EASTER ITSELF!
Sorry to say that despite being Easter, a season of rebirth and change… there hasn’t been much good stuff to be hopeful or rise with… just seems more like dead weight… I feel like a lot of best efforts have been fruitless of late…. I am either trying too hard for others that I end up exhausted in multiple ways. Like I feel like I am doo WAY too much just to be noticed in general for 5-seconds or just being this weird imposing weirdo. In fact: I seemed to have bothered a few users by a good amount: both rather new acquaintances and some old friends alike, and right now I am not too sure how I come off in general.
I see other things people would like, while I barely do anything for myself… outside of junk-food I should be cutting down on… still: my dayjob has me DO a lot for others too for long exhausting hours… all for pay that I can’t live on alone… and just barely helps those who need it.
Still… despite all the short comings I have been dealing with: I am trying to enjoy myself bit by bit. Enjoying playing through what video games I can play, drawing what I can draw, and seeing some posts I make getting SOME kind of glow up… even if for a day or two. With this small amount, I will try to push on: Focus more on my skills and my happiness than just general appeal to others. I will still be considerate to them and give them a lift when they need it, I will just try not to do it as an impulse.
I hope everyone else feeling the weight of the year can do the do the same to make it to the next year.
Stay safe and sane.
