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Happy Birthday to me?
a year ago
Oh man... sorry to say: this summer has me emotionally drained.
I've been nervous with my lack of hours at work since the start of June, with my car's repair and insurance bills looming over me, having my brother and his family visiting us for a couple of weeks, the insanity of our American government/legal/healthcare systems...
With the sad news of Dragoneer's passing, I am reminded of ConnerCoon... both of them met untimely end due to lack of proper healthcare coverages... this makes me worry how that will happen to me and my friends. The only solace I saw from their passings is how they had a close network of friends and supports who stayed in touch and supported each other through such a lost.
It is a downer to dwell on. But his is somewhat my worry for the last few years. I made a lot of friends online, experianced and experimented with new art too, but I always feels like I'm overlooked, eaither doing too little to be noticed, or trying to hard for the wrong reasons. I am not really sure of where I am going, let alone IF I am doing it right...
Again: to the friends who I met and help me through these kinds of anxeities, I thank you with all my heart. I don't think I can still be here if not for you...
Still with all the doubt and uncertainity, I am still striving through these crazy voyage that we call life... I just think I need to learn to expect more beyond just my birthday and Christmas to feel love from others. I need to treat myself like how I treat my friends.
I've been nervous with my lack of hours at work since the start of June, with my car's repair and insurance bills looming over me, having my brother and his family visiting us for a couple of weeks, the insanity of our American government/legal/healthcare systems...
With the sad news of Dragoneer's passing, I am reminded of ConnerCoon... both of them met untimely end due to lack of proper healthcare coverages... this makes me worry how that will happen to me and my friends. The only solace I saw from their passings is how they had a close network of friends and supports who stayed in touch and supported each other through such a lost.
It is a downer to dwell on. But his is somewhat my worry for the last few years. I made a lot of friends online, experianced and experimented with new art too, but I always feels like I'm overlooked, eaither doing too little to be noticed, or trying to hard for the wrong reasons. I am not really sure of where I am going, let alone IF I am doing it right...
Again: to the friends who I met and help me through these kinds of anxeities, I thank you with all my heart. I don't think I can still be here if not for you...
Still with all the doubt and uncertainity, I am still striving through these crazy voyage that we call life... I just think I need to learn to expect more beyond just my birthday and Christmas to feel love from others. I need to treat myself like how I treat my friends.
Hope to rest of the year goes a little better for you.