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I am Ukrainian
3 years ago
I was born and lived in Donetsk, I only have a DNR passport, since I reached the age of obtaining a passport in 2014 when everything started. Now in Donetsk there is a complete trash that cannot be described in words. I don’t have the opportunity to go towards Ukraine, I’m not sure at all if I can write all this, because every day I’m scared. I am in the Crimea, as it was the only option, because I have a friend living here, now I have been living with him since February 19, when Donetsk again came under massive shelling. I was able to get out with some money I was saving for a rainy day, and it arrived. I can't officially work in irl because I don't have Russian citizenship. And the citizenship of Ukraine too - because I was small when it all started in 2014, and did not reach the age of obtaining a passport. Every single day I'm scared to live. I have been silent for too long about what situation I am in, but when you have to limit yourself in everything, down to the lowest quality food, it becomes impossible to live. Not only do I survive being in Crimea on a migration card (on the 20th my migration card will expire and I will have to return to Donetsk to renew it) My parents stayed there because we have a sick grandmother who can only be transported with using specialized transport and with the permission of a doctor. It costs a lot of money that my parents can't afford. In Donetsk, there is no industrial water for 4 months, you have to wash yourself in the rain, or buy drinking water (which is expensive). Living, knowing that your house can be destroyed at any moment, and that a shell fragment can kill all your relatives at any second, is impossible. I’m ready to die, I’m ready to change places with my relatives, live in Donetsk, but take them out of there for at least a few months (maybe 2-3 (how much money is enough to pay for apartments and food)), but I don’t want to remain a homeless orphan. I didn’t even know that someone was paying attention to the Donbass until your colleague sent me a comment. I don't know what will happen tomorrow, no one knows. And like everyone else, I'm scared to death.
I had Paypal, I accepted payments on it, before everything started. Now I can only accept payments on boosty.to - https://boosty.to/abyssal (because I am in Russia. I don’t even have a bank card, because I don’t have Russian citizenship (a friend who lives here helps me with this). I have nothing. I ran away on the 19th with his kitten on the last bus, taking with him money, and a minimum of clothes. And then the shelling of Ukraine began. My friends (guys) several people have already died at the front, some of them are now hiding at home, because the guys are forcibly taken to war.
I have the opportunity to live without hearing the whistle of rockets, but my soul remained under fire, in poverty, along with my parents.
Living and paying for an apartment in Crimea is very expensive. If you save like me - you can invest 10-15k per month (for groceries, etc.) apartment 15-20k + utilities - 2k. I can hardly stretch my life, and I don’t know how I can help my parents with my current income. Several times I was on the edge, even spent 11 days on the beach (my cat was safe with people who could watch her, but unfortunately they could not shelter me either). I have photos of how I lived on the beach, and I was looking for an apartment for the least money that I had (fortunately I found it, and now I live in it, it seems that I am not afraid that I will be evicted) since the previous owners of the apartment where I lived evicted me, because they were going to leave the Crimea because of fear, and sold the house.
I don't know.. Now I'm writing all this with tears in my eyes, because I'm ashamed and scared. Why do I live like this? Why are we all forced to live like this? I am not sure of anything, whether I will live tomorrow, whether I will have any future.
My boosty - https://boosty.to/abyssal
Прекрасно понимаю какого, вам, я в такой же ситуации(нет ничего кроме паспорта ДНР). Надеюсь у вас все образуется и вы сможете справиться с этим.
Вы оказались в ужасном положении.
Я искренне сочувствую вам.
Надеюсь ваши близкие не пострадали.
Мира вам.
Кхм, я выложил этот журнал у себя на странице, надеюсь пару людей это приведёт.
К сожалению, я могу понять эту ситуацию. Не максимально, но в общих чертах.
Сам сижу со всей семьёй в Краматорске, без намёков на возможность выехать. Как минимум из-за мобилизации. Мать осталась без работы (отца и не было), цены взлетели, всё позакрывалось. И если есть желание хоть как-то под этим гулом выжить, остаётся надеяться на себя.
Само-собой художнику единственным верным решением остаётся лишь рисовать как не в себя, но на своём опыте я хочу дать совет.
Во первых я надеюсь у вас есть аккаунт на ych.commishes.com
Там проще всего с помощью аукционов брать заказы.
И ещё, чтобы немного поднять прайс лист предлагаю скачать программу Spine, это анимация, да, но она скелетная, безумно лёгкая и осваивается полностью в течении трёх часов с готовой работой на руках.
Так можно будет поднять цену на работу, да и анимации покупают лучше в целом.
Это немного, но это может помочь немного крепче держаться. Мне помогает, надеюсь и вы сможете хотя бы относительно встать на ноги.
И что более не придётся ночевать под открытым небом. Явно неприятный опыт...
Желаю успехов, и главное силы воли пережить всё это, свалившееся на нас.
Да и помни, что ты не одна - мы все вместе~
Спасибо также за советы, я правда буду стараться рисовать лучше, и апать свой скилл. И мне очень жаль слышать то, что ты тоже не в безопасности, как в моральном плане, так и в физическом. Надеюсь наш дух не падет никогда, пока мы все помогаем друг другу, даже если это просто слова. Важно понимать, что мы не одни на планете, но и от этого так несправедливо и больно. Я так молод, а уже хочу в петлю, и не знаю чувств, хуже моих.
Мы все должны пережить это, и справиться! <3
That sounds like depression! I have encountered a few others with similar situations. Unfortunately, I am not a therapist. Here is another Journal and some of the Comments under it may be helpful: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10229100/
Войдя сейчас в артблок выйти сложно, я согласен.
Что-же, я искренне надеюсь что у нас получится выбраться из этого депрессняка и найти в себе силы сделать этот марш бросок, сколько бы он не длился.
А вдруг, если выстоять в этих условиях, жизнь впредь станет легче?
Навыки останутся, ценности станут существеннее да и люди чуждые отсеются.
Наверное так, так что всё верно: Всеми силами переживаем, справляемся и живём полной жизнью
<( •w•)-👍
In general, everything is the same. ><
That sounds like a LOT of people in Ukraine who I have exchanged Notes or Comments with. There are a lot of people that probably have PTSD and depression.
Has the situation in Donetsk improved (fewer artillery shells/rockets falling) in the last two weeks? How much more money (donations/commissions) do you need to be able to both live and help your parents?
I have been working to get some attention on the problems that have been challenging ShinigamiTF, which are very similar to yours (and a few other people). We have gotten good response from people all over Ukraine, see all the links in https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10266119/ most of which are from Ukrainians, but it would be good to involve more Russians -- if you have any ideas for getting more Russians to do a simple "signal boost" to help bring attention to the plight of the people who grew up in the Donbass region.
I am making some progress with obtaining documents, I am safe, but this does not give me any peace, as my family continues to live in poverty and fear. I'm just hoping for more commission orders so that I can earn as much as possible so that my family can leave this hell at least for a couple of months.
I have never counted on donations, I just would like to have more attention paid to my work. I even started spamming people on Instagram in DM that my commissions are open, thereby putting my account at risk of being blocked due to spam, but I do not know what else I can do other than sacrifice my name, just to be heard. Thank you for what you do for
~ShinigamiTF I talked to her, and she lives in the same fear as my parents and I live, I hope she will be able to turn her life back to normal, like all the others we won't even be able to hear about.
On the outskirts of Donetsk, the dead people are buried right in the backyard of houses. There are just graves there.. Is this really all happening in 2022. This is hell on earth. I have nothing more to say. Unfortunately, wherever I go, I feel like now I will carry this cross of war on me all my life. And I'm sure that's how everyone who has been touched by the war feels.
(actually I hope that things have gotten better or will soon get better for you and/or your family, but I do read the news and I try to be realistic)