Feel free to skip. I'm just dumping cause I haven't had an outlet to do so.

My Ex who I live with is currently in the hospital due to internal bleeding and iron deficiency issues. Drs can't figure out what's causing it and he's been there since last Saturday.
I've been running to the hospital to help take care of him, seeing my kids about an hour a day and working nights. I'm so exhausted v.v
I do plan to try and find time still on my days off to work cause he's now unemployed and since being in the hospital, hasn't gotten unemployment figured out yet and there's zero chance for me to pay everything on my paycheck.
I'm scared and tired and depressed. My usual circle of friends haven't talked to me in about a month and it hurts.
I've not eaten well in weeks. Lost about 10lbs so far. Idk what I'm going to do. I just feel terrible. I can't find the energy to take care of myself.
Also just living in fear and hoarding my medication in case they start denying it to me. I can't go a day without fearing for something to happen. Be it a car accident, someone just slaughtering me, or stripping more of my rights away.
I have no answers. I'm sorry for the rant. I'm just isolated, lost, and scared.