I've been busy over the last year and a half after the last two years spending all the time to get to this point.

I'm struggling financially, physically I have just recovered from physical pain that was chronic since January. It's since gotten better but I'm still recovering. I'm still stiff in my side. But the biggest pain wasn't physical.

I got fired from a job I worked so hard on and got no help. Then even at home I was neglected, abused, and even then I still lost out in the end. I lost friendships, I've lost time and sanity and even now I'm still sore from cleaning up a mess... And it still wasn't enough to be perfect.

It feels like I've been battling a war on my own and I haven't had the guts or confidence to take my life in my own hands for fear of hurting those I thought I could call friends.

I'm just so tired but I'm trying hard to get back on my feet. I'm pushing to rebuild what was taken from me, pride, confidence, and my security and sanity. But I'm still around. Just still fighting the big fight and getting through life.

-Amrien