I never have used the journal section of FA, or any online blog like thing. I just don't know I need to vent and there is no other way of doing it right now. I recently graduated from High School and got out on my own, I aquired a job as a dishwasher a few months before and now I am still working part time (thankfully witha raise bit part time none the less). I am sick of this computer (which is starting to end itself every so often) and I need a new car (mine is currently also ending itself, I own a 1994 Geo Prizm) AND I am thinking about college. the college thing is something else completely different, I want to do so much for other people if I could only get the money to do it. I want to get almost everyone I know something for X-mas, and I want to show how much I appreciate them because I never was so able to get them all gifts. I am so Close to having a normal Life and yet so far away at the same time, its possible for me to do all this the question is how. ANYWAYS I hope I did not waste a good 5 minutes of your time (if it even took that long) to read this stupid rant on my problems. I guess writing this stuff down really does help and mayby I will write something a little more constructive next time. have a good one..