stop being so depresssive over all this. you tried, thats more than ill do. if i went into the military i would probably end up in the same position your in now, and thats why i have such a stigma against it. your awesome, now get you ass home and i'll throw you a party. cause its friggen boring here without you.

fthagn! i was here first, bitch!

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awh... you're not a failure. Stress is something that can poke at your subconscious until you're under so much stress that you're not aware of that you spontaneously do that sometimes. Nothing you could do about it.

Don't beat yourself up and don't belittle yourself. Don't get me wrong; Glad to have you back here, but don't think that you're not good enough for BCT. I bet you could do it no probs if it wasn't for past misfortunes.

To "be a man" doesn't mean blocking out your feelings, or forcing them into submission. That never works. Really being a man is being true to yourself, knowing how you really feel, and also balancing your and other people's needs.

Let me know if you ever want advice, or just someone cheerful to talk to. I'm happily to oblige. ^^

Your not a FAILURE.. I am a drop out from Army Officer Candidate School.... Some things are meant for different people This mus be something not meant for you. I came through the Air Force Basic Training and most of the task were related to attention to detail of folding clothing.. Army on the other hand,,, hates to think... they rather take the hard way for things.. I am happy to be getting out and doing things that I love now. You should look at it the same way now!!

You are in no way a failure. Everything happens for a reason, and this just wasn't the path for you. Sometimes the only way we can find out what path to NOT take, is by taking the wrong one. For you, the army may have been the wrong path. But you are not a failure. You may not see it at the moment, I know I didn't when I was first discharged, but I am sure there are so many things you have learned. Looking back, I know I never made it all the way like I wanted to but I wouldn't be who and where I am today if I had. Everything happens for a reason.

*pats back* u ain't no failure buddy, just wasn't for u, don't dwell on it too much, it'll eat at u if u let it

Fuckin army didn't let me even in because of one small problem.....

I lied about my issues =/

Yeah. Alot of other people with my issue got in, but NOOO, the faggot docter said "oh, no, we won't accept that/"

Yea I know its hard, and I don't know you at all, but I know that it's hard when you have issues like that. I'm currently fighting for my life against anxiety and panic attacks that have had control over me since as long as I can remember. It's hard to see yourself after a situation like that, as a good person or that you're doing ok, but you really are! You just need to find where you can be in life where your issues won't hurt you so much, or you can try to fight it with pure force like you said. As I'm trying to do now :< Regardless what's done is done and we have to accept what's happened, learn from it, and move on. You're doing just fine ^^ I was 19 once, and it was hard for me, it's been getting better now, esp that I have a faithful mate that deconstructs my prefabricated ideal that everyone is going to cheat xD but either way, hang in there!

thanks its been about 4 months now and things are getting slightly better, the feeling still lingers every once and a while but I just end up thinking of happy things and move on. I dont think its ever going to go away but meh I'll just live life and deal with it

Yea im plagued by bad feelings too, almost cost me my relationship, I'm constantly telling myself i gotta fight my anxiety, I think I might be going crazy doing it, but hey its a short trip xD Keep at it tho, every little bit will give you just that much more strength ^^

If you're a failure in one way then you're useful in another one...