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Nanowrimo 2022 & Why I've been gone
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Thank you for all the Watches, Favorites, and Comments!
Thank you for all the Watches, Favorites, and Comments!
Dearest FA
It's been a year since I gave you all an update but it's because as usual it will be a long winded thing. So let's skip and give you the only version I can legally. I'm putting a ** TRIGGER ** WARNING so if you read on you've been warned...
On October 10, 2022 I was found unresponsive in my bed. Somehow I was still breathing on my own but I had no access to my body. I was essentially dead and alive ... it was Shroedingers human essentially. I was rushed to the hospital and that's when the involuntary body thrashing happened because I was non verbal even though inside my head I was screaming what the hell was wrong but my body wouldn't respond so all I could do wash thrash. The tragedy of this is the fact the hospital ER called me a drug addict claimed it was an overdose and everyone who knows me even you all who have known me since I've been her in 2009 know that I have had cancer and multiple auto immune conditions. So there is NO way in hell I'd be doing drugs cause of all the chemo and other medications. So that biased opinion of what was happening the orderlies, nurses, and other staff decided to treat me horrendously. I was abused and I won't go into details here because it's just disgustingly horrible. lets just say they left me practically naked, played with my body used it to make videos and it was 5 men and 1 woman involved as they hid me in a room in the basement of the hospital to do these horrible things. Why I am just now speaking out is because the final diagnosis was a neurological stroke due to medication counteraction from the new biologics and other prescription meds to treat my myriad of health problems. I am alive and I am healing it's just going to take awhile. The worst thing is because it was a type of stroke my brain is the most effected. I tell my body do the thing and there is a lagg. Even in complex speech and of course a massive loss of memories. So for Nanowrimo I'm going to write the ugly details of what happened to me while I was trapped inside my own body while the abuse of my body happened as a way to recount and help build my case. I cannot post more here for legal reasons as it's an ongoing investigation. But you wanna know the worst of it all? The day I was found unresponsive was 2 days after the death of my sweet kitty Leonard the Lump it was the 12 death anniversary of my friend Ruthie ... it was the same week that last year I lost Scott and Sarah to Suicide. October is a really hard month for me and that is only the tip of the trauma iceberg. So if I promised you something or if we were supposed to do something together PLEASE reach out, be patient with me while I am healing. I want to reconnect with you all and even if I have partially forgotten you it's not malicious it's literally my brain had to "reboot" and it's still reconnecting. My doctors have me on a 1 year recovery plan starting with memories from 16 onwards (due to all the trauma before 16 it was best to start with something positive and work from there) So I started with music from 1993 and beyond. The memories are coming back. Every week or every good day I push myself. As a matter of fact I drove for the first time the other day only 3 miles but still. I'm relearning lots of things. Video games as long as they are not graphic or particle intensive I do ok with. I'm back to reading and as you can see here I'm writing fairly coherently ... not perfect but getting there. So while I am gonna ask Moonblossom to help me post on here and finish my seriously overdue art pieces that deserve attention and I did commission while I was in the midst of this and my friend and hubby helped me with the site to make sure payments and ref sheets got out for my art commissions. However, like I said the memories are foggy still and I beg for patience.
When it comes to answer to DM's and comments and whatnot I am behind the keyboard but sometimes I have to have help with words so it will be either Moonblossom or Sardonyx helping me or even Clyde or Tails when they are available. They are good friends and became part of my RL because of this social platform. I missed both Moonblossom and Toorima's wedding due to all these issues but because of this place I've survived so much and with your help I plan on fighting to get better faster than even the doctors say. You know how stubborn I am and I will fight to be back in full force. Thanks to you all for being awesome and I can't wait to get back to stories and art, twitch streaming and gaming again ASAP. Look forward to it and until we speak again BE EXCELLENT TO EACH OTHER! Cause if we aren't going to who will?
I'll try not to update so far apart from now on. This is you friendly neighborhood Angelis the Catfox signing off for now.
It's been a year since I gave you all an update but it's because as usual it will be a long winded thing. So let's skip and give you the only version I can legally. I'm putting a ** TRIGGER ** WARNING so if you read on you've been warned...
On October 10, 2022 I was found unresponsive in my bed. Somehow I was still breathing on my own but I had no access to my body. I was essentially dead and alive ... it was Shroedingers human essentially. I was rushed to the hospital and that's when the involuntary body thrashing happened because I was non verbal even though inside my head I was screaming what the hell was wrong but my body wouldn't respond so all I could do wash thrash. The tragedy of this is the fact the hospital ER called me a drug addict claimed it was an overdose and everyone who knows me even you all who have known me since I've been her in 2009 know that I have had cancer and multiple auto immune conditions. So there is NO way in hell I'd be doing drugs cause of all the chemo and other medications. So that biased opinion of what was happening the orderlies, nurses, and other staff decided to treat me horrendously. I was abused and I won't go into details here because it's just disgustingly horrible. lets just say they left me practically naked, played with my body used it to make videos and it was 5 men and 1 woman involved as they hid me in a room in the basement of the hospital to do these horrible things. Why I am just now speaking out is because the final diagnosis was a neurological stroke due to medication counteraction from the new biologics and other prescription meds to treat my myriad of health problems. I am alive and I am healing it's just going to take awhile. The worst thing is because it was a type of stroke my brain is the most effected. I tell my body do the thing and there is a lagg. Even in complex speech and of course a massive loss of memories. So for Nanowrimo I'm going to write the ugly details of what happened to me while I was trapped inside my own body while the abuse of my body happened as a way to recount and help build my case. I cannot post more here for legal reasons as it's an ongoing investigation. But you wanna know the worst of it all? The day I was found unresponsive was 2 days after the death of my sweet kitty Leonard the Lump it was the 12 death anniversary of my friend Ruthie ... it was the same week that last year I lost Scott and Sarah to Suicide. October is a really hard month for me and that is only the tip of the trauma iceberg. So if I promised you something or if we were supposed to do something together PLEASE reach out, be patient with me while I am healing. I want to reconnect with you all and even if I have partially forgotten you it's not malicious it's literally my brain had to "reboot" and it's still reconnecting. My doctors have me on a 1 year recovery plan starting with memories from 16 onwards (due to all the trauma before 16 it was best to start with something positive and work from there) So I started with music from 1993 and beyond. The memories are coming back. Every week or every good day I push myself. As a matter of fact I drove for the first time the other day only 3 miles but still. I'm relearning lots of things. Video games as long as they are not graphic or particle intensive I do ok with. I'm back to reading and as you can see here I'm writing fairly coherently ... not perfect but getting there. So while I am gonna ask Moonblossom to help me post on here and finish my seriously overdue art pieces that deserve attention and I did commission while I was in the midst of this and my friend and hubby helped me with the site to make sure payments and ref sheets got out for my art commissions. However, like I said the memories are foggy still and I beg for patience.
When it comes to answer to DM's and comments and whatnot I am behind the keyboard but sometimes I have to have help with words so it will be either Moonblossom or Sardonyx helping me or even Clyde or Tails when they are available. They are good friends and became part of my RL because of this social platform. I missed both Moonblossom and Toorima's wedding due to all these issues but because of this place I've survived so much and with your help I plan on fighting to get better faster than even the doctors say. You know how stubborn I am and I will fight to be back in full force. Thanks to you all for being awesome and I can't wait to get back to stories and art, twitch streaming and gaming again ASAP. Look forward to it and until we speak again BE EXCELLENT TO EACH OTHER! Cause if we aren't going to who will?
I'll try not to update so far apart from now on. This is you friendly neighborhood Angelis the Catfox signing off for now.
Nemui.
~nemui.
I sincerely hope you get better soon and please take it easy. I do hope you will be pursuing malpractice charges over this... it's unacceptable! Like seriously, what the fuck? Regardless I am so glad you're alright in the sense that you're up and at 'em. Please take your time, we can wait, your health and wellbeing comes first always. ♥
Angelis
~angelis
OP
So I took the case to several lawyers and unfortunately because of my myriad of health conditions and surviving cancer they know I'll lose the case and this is unfortunately a huge tragedy. The only thing at this point I would get is a record of the complaint against the hospital. But because my eyes could not open and I didn't have my glasses during the assault I can't point out who did what etc. So since it was traumatic and extremely sad - I'm seeing a therapist to move forward and let my brain finish healing. Thank you so much for reaching out - I really do appreciate it!
Issarlk
~issarlk
What a terrible experience. I hope for your steady recovery.
Angelis
~angelis
OP
Thank you my sweet friend. I miss you terribly and we haven't caught up properly in a very long time. Have things been going well for you? We used to have such awesome conversations and I always enjoyed your company. I'd love to know how you are doing so don't be a stranger ok?
