Dearest FA Community,

It's been a long time hasn't it? Well, my last journal was a wall of text of unfortunate events. I'd love to tell you all that everything is back to normal and that I'm totally fine. Sadly, I'm still on the road to recovery. However, let me tell you some of the positives. I'm typing this journal on my own. So I've relearned how to type. YAY! Next, I've relearned how to drive (however, only short distances cause nervous) YAY! I finished Speech therapy and can now talk again fairly consistently. I occasionally will for instance call a t-shirt a painting. Otherwise, Vocally my vocal cords have healed but I may not be able to sing anymore. So mixed Yay boo? I did go through Neuro Psychology and discovered that while the CT, MRI and other tests show no damage. I present with deficits. Long term memory is excellent. Short term no - kinda crappy still. However, as of late January 2024 I started socializing again after more than a year of isolation. so YAY! Rebuilding my life with these deficits and now need for major PTSD therapy and trauma therapy from the assault in 2022 they say I'll be in intensive therapy through 2025. Most people would be ashamed of this or feel a stigma. Y'all know me the catfox with buttwings and we shouldn't be ashamed because we need a little help. We need to de stigmatize people who have mental and physical issues that need help. None of us are perfect. Now in my eyes all of you are perfectly imperfect just as you are. So I posted on all my social media at the end of December 2023 that I was going to take 2024 and for once be absolutely selfish. What I mean by that is I'm gonna do the therapy, I'm gonna learn to set boundaries, I'm going to stop letting people let me slip through the cracks and only engaged with if I can do something for them. I love to help you all know that but the catfox is hurt needs healing ... needs patience and your support. Let me be honest ... having cancer was easier than what I'm going through right now. So I am commissioning again and I am excited. I am very very behind on posting. I truly apologize to the artist and to the fans of my characters. They deserve to be displayed acknowledged and I will do my best to start getting more posted in a timelier manner. I've heard that there is drama in this community well to be fair where there are people there inevitably is drama. I can say in the more than a decade I've been here I've only had 1 minor instance of a miscommunication. Otherwise NO drama. I want to thank you all who have contributed to give a safe space to be well ME - this has been the first place to ever let me be me. So Thank you all very much. Know that I am not gonna tell you the ongoing drama and trauma that has happened in 2023 ... let's just say right her and right now I'm in a safe place and safe space and have some RL support and with this I am going to take on 2024 and be the best person behind the catfox I can be. So much love and yes NANOWRIMO will be a thing and where the status of the stories are ... is that it will either be 5 novellas or a trilogy that I will post for free after I edit it or pay for editing. Welp another huge wall of text but hopefully this will put some of your concerns to bed cause I am gonna be ok ... I've decided :3 Take care of each other and be patient with me if I forget something write me please don't get upset or let something fester. I promise I don't bite unless you into that kinda thing wink wink :3 Until next time!