For over 3 years I have been drawing furry art and I have to admit it shows little success. So does my place in furry subculture show I would probably be disliked by many if people know of the fact my OCs land is basicly my values made into a country. And I would be redundant to say how irreconcilable it is with most people here.

And as I as a person am of a dismal and wistful disposition so I am considering quitting drawing. Although it can be just that I am weak-minded which is my fault. I should have been more assertive. Oh where did I make a mistake?! To think typical 15 year old girls draw, in their notebooks in the middle of their dull school classes, 100 times better than I was ever capable of drawing is just soul-crushing. While I am not capable to even draw a decent house without having serious second thoughts... Oh how I wish I could go back to my childhood when I had no problems in expressing myself on a peice of A4 paper. Now I am just... Dry when it comes to creativity. Each year I am losing more of it.

Maybe I was never meant to draw.
Truly it seems I am not good for anything for I have no desires, no plans, no ambitions, nor drive. This aimlessness is what is killing me.

So don't expect much of new art... It may be maximum of 4 new drawings until the end of this year posted here